Note to my blogger

Dear Blogger,

Sorry if I haven't updated you. I've been updating my tumblr lately. I'm so sorry. I'll catch up with you anytime soon.

I miss you..

--- XOXO -----

Out of nothing at all

I just don't know why I feel like blogging.. The main purpose as to why I'm here is that I have to search for our place to stay in Singapore and while searching down the list of the hotels and hostels when all of a sudden it says "Webpage cannot be displayed. Check your connection." <--- just added that one, what a fudge, I have to hurry myself in looking for a hotel to stay 'coz August is getting near and still I haven't made any hotel bookings. Though I admit I have all the internet access at work but the only thing here is that hello, I have inbound and outbound calls that I have to attend to and I have to monitor calls in my board. I didn't go to work just to take advantage of the free internet access but it's because I am paid to do my job as an agent. That is why my time is precious that every second of it counts. I have to do what I've been tasked to do.

Moving on, this blog is not just about expressing my thoughts just because this stupid connection here in this mall (not to drop name) is so freaking me out. It's as much as I want to have our owN line of internet connection but right now, I've set my priorities already, maybe sooner or later but not now, I have to save some money for my Singapore trip.

Anyways, moving forward, guess the connection is no longer that worst than I expected. Maybe just maybe.. Let's just wait and see.. :)

Winning and helping a fellow blogger.. Blogging about Life-size-paperdoll

I'm trying to welcome myself back to blogging. It's been quite a while and I admit, I haven't updated my blogs lately. As far as I could remember the last update that I posted here is about starting a food and travel blog and after that no further updates. Anyways, libys (sorry if I spelled it wrong) commented in one of my post mentioning about fish ball, well, I was amaze that she left a comment and at the same time I replied to her, and I even checked her blog too and found out she has this giveaways as to whoever will follow her but then sad to say I didn't make it. Someone won the freebies already but she mentioned that she has a friend of hers too that is also having the same promo or should I say giving out some freebies as to whoever will follow them and will blog about them. It's more like promoting their blog which is quite amazing 'coz I myself can't actually dare doing that.

And so, I followed her and here I am, ending up blogging about her site, I wanted to blog about her not because I wanted to win the giveaways but because I love to help her by promoting her blog as well. Which is a win win situation though I'm not sure if I'll win the stuff but at least I was able to help promote her blog which is through blogging as well.

And so to Maggeygrace, to the owner of life-size-paperdoll.blogspot.com here's a welcome post to your site and as for me, for following and for blogging your site as well. Hope I was able to help you promote your blog. And because you are the recent female blogger that I followed, I made a customize edited picture of your blog showing me as your number 1 follower. :)

Have fun and enjoy life!! :) Take care.. Kudos to your blog and to your avid followers as well.

Wish me luck, hope the random number generator will pick me as one of the winners. :)

PS: For those who wants to win these giveaways too, here's the link so that you guys can also win at the same time, help promoting her site. :)

-----> http://life-size-paperdoll.blogspot.com/

Food and travel blog

I was about to start my food blog and my travel blog. But then I realized, I've had more than 6 blogs to keep track which is more likely confusing. So I decided, to just use one or two blogs so that I can really manage and keep up to date my blogs all the time. Well, it's as much as I want to start food blogging but due to limited internet connection might as well start anytime soon but haven't decided when. Guess, I have to squeeze more of my time in managing my blogs.

But rest assured 'coz by the time I'll be posting blogs about the latest food that I have eaten or the latest sweets that I've been craving, by that time, I'll be posting pics as well as an evidence. But for now, I still can't post pics because my schedule is so hectic and lately I'm not feeling well.

And right now, at this very moment I'm craving for fishball, and for those who doesn't know what a fishball is here's a sample pic below that looks exactly the same with the ones in the street. Yum yum.. Can't wait to eat later. :)

A. Fishball

Paranoid.. Jealousy.. Secrets... and Lie

Yesterday, I was being paranoid. For some reasons, there's something that he did that made me suspect him. You see, I tweeted last time and I told the whole world that I'll trust him, that I'll give him the benefit of the doubt. But then, everyday, I'm trying to be true to my word. It's a constant struggle within myself. I can't tell him, no, that's not gonna happen anymore. I'd rather keep it to myself rather than being paranoid about those stuff which drives me mad. But then, just yesterday, when I went home after work, as usual I'll catch him sleeping. And so, just like a normal routine, I put down my bag to the floor, lay down beside him and either hug him, kiss him or tickle his nipples. And so, I did my normal habit, I did all of it. I thought he'll be mad for doing such 'coz the last time I remember he was pissed 'coz he's still sleepy and I've been teasing him but then yesterday, he seemed to be so relax, I even kissed his forehead and whispered slowly "Tuko ka?" in English, "Are you mad?" but then he said no, he's still sleepy and he asked a favor to just hug him and stay beside him. And so I did, but then few minutes after, I had the urge to rush down to the comfort room, the call of nature was really urgent. Anyways, after the success, I changed my clothes, turned on the computer and play my favorite game Bounce Blitz.

After 1 hour: There was a vibrating beep, and when I checked it, it was my phone, I have a text. The text came from myglobe rewards, so I hastily deleted it. And then, it made me wonder where his phone was. I couldn't see it and it is not visible within my area. So I sneaked out, looking for his phone.

Looking... Searching.. Where is that? Hmmm.. Looking. Searching........................ Exhausted

And then, I gave up. I couldn't find it. I was really upset to myself. I wouldn't invade his privacy 'coz I told him I'll give him space but then I was suspecting why is he hiding it from me? A lot of things and reasons are debating in my mind, my heart is beating faster, then I asked myself... Why? Well, I never had answers, so I kept myself distracted by playing. But still, no matter how I told myself not to think of it, the more it got worst 'coz I remembered he signed on to unlimited texting. The more it made me suspect, my mind's been wandering and thoughts popping out my furious mind. I couldn't concentrate. So I lay down beside him, I was catching my breath and I was trying to calm my worried heart.

Its as much as I want to wake him up and confront him but then I couldn't. No words are coming out of my mouth. I can't utter a single word nor I can't dare touching him. I tried holding my emotions, I was totally drain, I was too weak physically and dying emotionally. Hours past....

He then woke up, he then gave me something and its a food. He knew it was my weakness. Then we talked, but the talk was not about looking for his phone, but it was about how his shift turned out. After 30 minutes of talking, he decided to sleep again and told me to wake him up by 6pm in our laptop's time. I was wondering, why in the world is he using the laptop's time when in fact he usually keeps track of time using his phone. And then I could no longer hold on to it so I asked him, "Ming, why are you basing it on the laptop's time? Why not in your phone? And by the way, where is your phone?" That's it. He then exclaimed, "Oh my cellphone" then rushed to his shorts that he used earlier before going to sleep. Then I teased him. And then he was denying that he didn't do anything, so to prove the guilt, he opened his phone, and I tried to close my eyes, hid my face under the pillow so as not to see him browsing his phone. But then, he forced me to take a look at it while scrolling his messages and his history. He then said, "You see? I didn't texted her. I didn't do anything." And there...

That time, when I was able to prove myself that there was nothing going on, I felt relax and calm. My heart beat went back to normal and I was already at the normal state. He then kissed me and slept.

I was so silly, jealous and in short paranoid. I just can't explain why am I feeling this way. I know I judged the girl but its just that her actions proves me. I know how it feels coz I'm a girl too. Even before, he never hid anything from me, but then when this girl came, he seems to be so guilty, his actions are very suspecting, and a simple text from the girl would excite him. He even hid from me all their texts, I mean, I need not to read their text messages, but then there was a time when he was sleeping and his phone was vibrating 'coz there was a message, so I read it with no intentions, 'coz I've been thinking maybe its urgent or an emergency, so I read it. But then, the girl replied while he was asleep. It then made me look back his recent text, but then I can't find any text from him in his sent items, neither in the inbox and since I'm used to in my phone, I search the history and found out that they were texting all day long and then we had a big fight at that night that we were about to break up. But then we talked it over and were able to settle it.

There you go... Its no wonder why we are still together. And right now, I'm still observing him.

Let's sit, and wait patiently. And let's see for ourselves what will happen.. Good luck to me!

PS: Good thing, blog sites were created, it is through blogging where I can pour my heart out and where I can share my feelings without being judged.