Pretender

Self-confessed pretender.. That's me.. I have to pretend that I'm okay even though I'm hurting. It's the only way I can get through with it. Why am I still feeling this way? Am I that hard to be understood? I just don't get it.. I simply can't get it... This pain keeps on haunting me.. constantly.. Why are you hurting me? You said you won't hurt me, but why are you doing this to me? Why are you making things so complicated, making this things a bit too hard for me. What did I do? Tell me.. What should I do so that I can no longer feel this pain? You're the only that have caused it, and you're the only one who could ease the pain away... Damn it actually hurts.. Over and over again.. It's killing me slowly... Please don't do this to me.. Will you stop hurting me just for once? I just can't get enough of this pain.. :'(

A simple word yet it means a lot...

Something to look forward to

Words of encouragement

Here's something for you to inspire on: Life is all about ups and downs. Always keep your feet on the ground, stay humble; don't be too arrogant. Well we always have different sides of story, we all face different challenges and learn to handle criticism with a smile. If people hurt you, revenge will not do, rather kill them with kindness, remember it is biblical that you have to love your enemy. Be a friend, learn to listen, appreciate and comfort. Never leave any promises if you ought to break them. Learn from your experiences, like what they say experiences is the best teacher. If you think nobody loves you, well think it over and over again, someone loves you up there.. Count your blessings, learn to be contented. Life is full of challenges and trials, just don't give up, you can make it, you just have to have faith.. Grab some opportunities if there is any. Life is a once in a lifetime experience, so live as if everyday is the last 'coz you could never take back the time. Treasure each moments, seize the day, laugh hard, share what you have learned, grow up, there's always something to look forward, if problems try to pull you down, always look on the bright side and lastly, be yourself, don't pretend somebody you're not. You are a unique creation of GOD. GOD loves you, we all do... :) Till here.. Keep smiling.. Enjoy!!

Not so important...

Nothing really important about this blog of mine.. I feel so sad.. My day turned out to be very upsetting. My boyfriend got mad at me for cancelling our last minute date. I made a promise something that I was able to break (the lunch date).. So sad, he got mad at me. I made his day worst. He never bother to text at all nor let me know how is he doing or whatsoever.. I was so damn worried, I kept on saying sorry 'coz it's not my fault. I did everything I could, but its just that my mom wouldn't allow me, so there's nothing I can do but stay at home. Even up to now, he never left any message or a call at all.. I've been pushing myself already to him, but still no response. Should I stop? I left a message in his comment box in the friendster, I told him that I'll just give him time to cool down.. Am I doing the right thing? =( I'm so damn worried.. Does he even feel the same way? grrr..... I feel like breaking down.. What else does he want? I just don't know what to do.. =(

I couldn't share this to anyone 'coz I know they can't do anything about it. The problem is too personal. All I could ever do is just cry my heart out, so that I could't feel this pain... Damn it kills me...

Nohnoh (front) and Tanya (back)...

I miss my dog Nohnoh, my dog is the only one I can cry on, the only one who understands me and all these things that I'm going through, my listening ear, my bestfriend.. I know Nohnoh is happy in heaven right now.. I miss you Nohnoh Ate... =(