LOST: my mingming

I couldn't get over with the fact that we fought. 2nd day of 2009, an argument has been brought up already. I admit, I miss him really. It's been 5 days to be exact of not being able to see him and be with him. I left broken promises to him and I promised to myself to patch things later. But later is now and still, not a single way ever happened. He is still mad at me, I tried to miss call his phone, it only rang but no text followed. I am soooo damn worried. It's really late and I can't sleep thinking how he is, where he is and he is with whom.. A lot of things pop into my silly mind. I tried diverting my attention by looking at his page, yeah, I caught myself looking at his own page, and I remembered our times of the sweetness, the times when the love was so fresh, the I LOVE YOU's was sooo sweet and the never ending long comments that somehow occupied our friendster page. Looking back, the love was soooo undeniably fresh, sweet and somehow "kilig".

Now, I came to ask myself, is it still the same? Is the feeling still the same comparing to our first time of being together? I soooo miss the life when all his world revolves around me, and all his plans includes me, all his daily life is that I'm part of it. But now, it just came to a point where he could no longer stand my lates, my promises and basically, the whole "me". I don't know, maybe he loves the positive attitude of myself but the worst in me, he couldn't accept. Is this still love? I don't know. I had previous relationship but still I have no idea when it comes to love issue, I still feel like I'm a newbie in this so called "L-O-V-E" thing.

For now, I can still divert my mind of not to think of him but later, as I head myself to sleep, all I could ever think of is him. I'm so damn worried. Does he feel the same way too? I miss him badly. Does he misses me too? T_T... too bad, he's always on my mind.. And its driving me insane.. T_T

Silly me.. T_T

XOXO...

not a good start

Suppose to be today was the new start of my life. New year and new life already but still seems like I'm back of being the worst person ever. I'm now more of the lazy, the stubborn and the I-don't-know-what-to-do-with-my-life-right-now mode. You see, I planned to change my life for the best, not only settle for better but aim for the best, But sad to say, I woke up this late afternoon, still feeling sleepy, wasn't able to finish cleaning my room, had an argument and broken promise to my boyfriend which eventually resulted to fight and now, here I am, stuck in this blog, back as to the branded "ME"(period).

Now, he's still mad at me for not comin' and breaking my promises. Not a single text ever came and I don't know how he is right now. But, really, I am very much worried. As much as I want to communicate with him, but my pride tells me not to. Stupid pride. I just couldn't swallow it for the moment, 'coz I might be choke up. I realize, maybe he needs time. Maybe I should communicate with him later. Just don't want to end the day with unresolved conflicts. Hai.. It's really my fault. I know.. T_T and I admit.. But right now, I just couldn't think of the right way to patch things up. I don't know how to get away with it. T_T

Now, new year, new conflicts has brought me. It's not what I wanted to happen. I so wanted to change really. But he thinks that I will never change. Well, one thing that came in my mind, prove to him that he was wrong. That I am capable of change. I can change myself for the better. Hopefully, tomorrow, it will turn out good. Just want to put things in order.

I guess, I have to end up here. Got nothing more to say. I'm running out of words and my mind is very pre-occupied with a lot of things especially him. T_T hope to hear from him soon..

XOXO..

Happy new year!

Yesterday ended 2008, now we welcome 2009 with a brand new start. Hmmmm.. Time to check out my resolution list. Was I able to accomplish something for my resolution in the year 2008? Maybe some, and maybe not at all. But what really matters is that another year, another start, another resolution list.

So, better jot down your list of new resolutions. This calls for change! New life! New beginning!!

Till here! HAPPY NEW YEAR to each and everyone!!!

Twilight the movie

When this flick was released in the movie house, I was never fascinated to watch the movie, aside from the fact that I'm not really fond of watching movies, movie houses are too expensive already and because my boyfriend's brother has a book on Twilight, he said, the movie was quite changed from the real story in the book. There was a bit of change in the scenes or the script itself perhaps. So, I wasn't really that excited to watch the movie. I received positive comments and feedbacks regarding the movie, hearsays and even a quote from the SMS excerpt from the script in the movie. OMG! Everybody's talking about it, on how good the movie was, the thrill, the excitement, the "kilig" factor and even how inspired they were after watching the movie. At the back of my mind, I was thinking maybe it was more like the story of "The Notebook" but on the other hand, its more on vampires, how can I relate to that? And so, just last night, my brother was buffering this movie, and I was able to grab a chance to take a sneek peek, but eventually, call it funny, it was very inviting. I was able to finish the story, though the ending was so hanging and the thrill would somehow still be prolonged. Yeah right, whatever.

So, I got into this teen's site, and taddah! I bumped into this so called Twilight quiz, it's about which Twilight character reflects you? And oh-no, I got myself into it by answering the quiz. Tsk. tsk.. tsk... , that kinda sound like I'm already a fanatic of it. Oooh-lala... And now, here's the result: Seems like I'm more of Bella Swan.

You are Bella Swan.
Intelligent, mature beyond your years, and selfless, you always think of others before yourself. You can be utterly clumsy at times, and you like spending your time by yourself. You are incapable of staying mad at a person, and at times you can be very stubborn. You are able to make sacrifices easily if it's for the ones you love.

PS: And I've come to realize, it's really more like me. Oh-no.. :) Exactly!!

CHRISTMAS!! It's HIS day!!!

When it comes to the word Christmas, some would remember, gift giving, holiday rush, Christmas sale, bonuses, yummy and delicious foods, Noche Buena, Christmas tree, lights and fireworks, but if you were to asked someone, do they exactly know the reason why we celebrate Christmas? Maybe not all, but only few of them knew the real essence of Christmas. For me, gift giving, parties, bonuses and other stuff are the only perks and add-ons during Christmas, but the real reason behind it is that because we are celebrating the birth of our LORD JESUS CHRIST, our Saviour. When 24th of the midnight strikes the clock, aside from the greetings, hugs and kisses and opening of the gifts, were you able to greet the LORD GOD a HAPPY BIRTHDAY? Have you even whispered a prayer for HIM? Maybe for some yes, and maybe for some only during Noche Buena, but the real picture here is that we celebrate because it is HIS day. The gifts and other perks are GOD's blessing to us, even our lives, it is already a big blessing HE has given to us. So grab the chance to greet Him today, it's never too late ayt?

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY LORD GOD!!!

And to end things up, I want to grab the opportunity to greet each and everyone a MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! Yohooooo!!!!! :) Hugs and kisses to all!! GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!