HAPPY FATHER'S DAY PAPA!!!

I wonder how my life would be without my dad? Hmmm... Of course, I wouldn't be so lucky without him. My dad, whom was the bread winner of our family, with the responsibility that was passed on to him, he took the responsibility and took care of everything. Not to mention, the status that we have right now, we wouldn't be able to reach this far if it wasn't for his effort. And thanks to his genes, I was beautifully made and to my mom genes too! And also, if it wasn't for my parents, I wouldn't exist here on earth. There would be no Krystal Pearl that would exists. And I wouldn't be this unique if it wasn't for my parent's efforts and their genes! khkhkkh...

Eversince I was born into this world, I grew up with the fact that my dad has always been our provider and indeed he never proved me wrong because he provided us with everything. He's not selfish, he takes good care of us and makes sure that all our needs have been met, and he surprises us once in a while too. What I love about my dad is that, he's a carefree person, he is kind hearted and a good father to us. He seldom gets mad, and he seldom argues with us. And also he's funny and cool to be with too. He disciplined us that is why we are raised as well mannered children. Well, I wouldn't be a professional nurse without my dad's financial support. Thanks to his stable job, me and my sister were able to finish college. I owe my success to my dad who supported me with my financial needs even before as I was still a student. Even though at times, when money is hard to find, he will still finds a way to provide me with all my needs in school, may it be tuition, other expense and even allowance. See? That is why I am super duper proud of my dad, who molded us and trained us into a great and professional human beings.

So here's a letter to my super duper cool dad:

Papa dear, thank you for everything. And I'm really sorry I wasn't able to greet you on your day. My sincerest apology, but anyway, I guess its not yet that late for me to greet you a HAPPY FATHER'S DAY PAPA DEAR!! I know life has been tough with our family, with all the mistakes you have done in the past, we forgive you. And with all the trials and challenges that our family have face, by GOD's will, we will be able to surpass all these trials in life, we'll just hold on to each other as a family and we will hold on tight to GOD and pray on our bended knees for GOD's help. I know HE will take good care of us and that HE is in control. Thank you for everything papa. Thank you for the love and support you have given to me. I wouldn't be this successful if it wasn't for you papa. Thank you so much for everything. Words are not enough for me to thank you. I am sooooo lucky to have a father like you. And I thank the LORD GOD above, for giving me a dear father like you. You are one of the greatest gifts GOD has given to me. Thank you LORD.. I love you papa... we are so proud of you!! You totally rock!!!

And LORD GOD, you are our heavenly father. You are the father of all.. This occassion is not just for our human dads, but YOU are also one of the everyday reasons why we celebrate FATHER'S DAY! Because you are our Abba Father! HAPPY FATHER'S DAY LORD GOD!! We your children are very much thankful for the life you have endowed to us! Thank you for dying on the cross for us. Thank you once again for the life you have given to us, thank you for the success you have given to me, the never ending support to our family and the unconditional love you have given to us. Thank you.. thank you. super thank you.. We love you LORD!!! Thank you so much..

And before I end this up, allow me to greet all the FATHER'S out there! And all the soon to be father's too!! May GOD BLESS YOU and your families as well!!! Lovelots to all the father's!!!!

Under Construction

It's been quite a while since I last posted a blog here. And to matter everything, I posted this signage that says under construction. Because the fact that I soooo wanted to update my blog every now and then but then again, I'm just too preoccupied to do such.. And I'm still thinking on what designs or new styles to add to my blog in order for it to be more attractive to look at.. But since I haven't thought of anything yet, for now, I'll just leave it as it is since I still have other important things to attend to.. But maybe soon, I will keep in touch with my blog more often. Keep update still!!! Love lots!!

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Change

Everyday, I find myself so stupid and dumb. I make stupid decisions, faults and other matters, frustrating as it is but I admit, every night before I go to sleep, I always think about how I spent my day, and I find it so pathetic for my self and frustrating too because I wasted lots of opportunities, wasted too much time for nothing and the fact that I'm getting older but still I had less achievements. Yeah right, I'm not born with a silverspoon in my mouth, my freedom was taken away from me, I have to watch my moves every now and then because my family always look at me negatively. Yes, I'm not perfect, I am wild, I am rebellious, I am stupid and dumb and lazy and all, but behind those adjectives that people described me, behind it are the deepest hurts, frustrations, depressions, negativism of my mind, negative outlook in life and tears that I hid behind their backs; my bed, my pillows, my room and GOD are the only witness of my frustrations, confessions of my sins and all the crazy stuff that I've been doing. My parents think of me like I think of myself as perfect, they thought I don't listen to their advices and they look at me like I am always a rebellious child, but then they just don't realize, my heart is pure to help them in everything, I listen to their advices but I do absorb them discreetly, I am not rebellious, I just wanted to experience life at its fullest, I know what I'm doing, I am capable of my actions, of my sins and all the errors that I have been doing. I know... I know... 'Coz I am always being reminded by them everynight, before I go to sleep, they even haunt me in my dreams, even in the busy day of my life, I am reminded by it. GOD knows that I am totally a sinner, I am not perfect and I kept on committing the same mistakes over and over again, but I do confess my sins before GOD, I acknowledge my sins before HIM and asks forgiveness from HIM. But one thing they don't know, I listen to them, and that my heart is pure and true and sincere.

How can they see the change in me when they look at me negatively? How can I prove to them that I really changeD? Sometimes, I chose to be silent rather than talk, but lately, I chose to talk rather than to be silent because with all the hurts and pain that I have within me, I am already bombarded with it, my heart is too heavy and sometimes talking back finds relief, 'coz even if they don't listen to me and the words that I am saying to them, but at least I was able to express how I feel towards them and defending my self, is somehow the only way for me to regain strength after everything.

I am sorry for my dear parents and my siblings whom I have caused pain. I admit I made a lot of mistakes to you guys but then, if you guys only knew, I've been regretting all those, I listen to your advices, but in return, just please take time to listen to me. Just listen, I won't beg you to trust me, take good care of me, understand me, but just listen., only listen. I'm fine with it. I am sorry, I am not perfect, I am rebellious and I want my freedom. That's all..

Job interview (part time)

OMG! Honestly, I thought my night would be a disaster. But then, thank GOD, they gave me a chance. I mean, this job really matters to me. This is already a big opportunity and I don't think I will let this slip away. Out of millions and billions of people who were unemployed, and here I am, the opportunity is knocking on my big door, and letting it slip away is totally a waste. You see, 120 per hour is huge enough already. Enough for me to be able to pursue my plans for that money and for some reasons, because I am supporting myself all alone. I have lots of plans for that money, if by GOD'S will be given a chance to be accepted, first things first, I will get mingming's motorcycle so that commuting will no longer be a hassle for the both of us and also, so that we can now start saving at least a little bit. And next on the line, my wants and his wants. Not to mention I still have to buy him a new slippers because his slippers is already damage as he calls it. And of course, my wants like buying a new pair of jeans, shirts, tops, sandals and of course bag, and also a new wallet. I wanted to save my extra money in the future so that by the time I need a little extra, at least there's something to pull out in my pocket. And so, even if its that tiring, having a part time job is totally compensating. You get to use your extra time for an extra money. See? That's the advantage of having a part time job at the comfort of your own home. That is why, I am totally praying that by GOD'S will, I will be accepted by this offer and hopefully, I would be able to finance my needs and at the same time wants. :)

Wish me good luck for my final interview. And may GOD BLESS ME... :) Love lots!! XOXO

Congratz zal!!!

Finally! Another superfriend of ours graduated from college!! Woooohoooo!!! I would just like to congratulate one of my best bud, Ms. Rizalyn Solamo for graduating the course of Bachelor of Science in Nursing! We are so proud of you zal.. It's the start of your career already.. The responsibility is passed on to you.. And your next step? Review, take and PASS the Board Exam! You can do it zal! You and cy2x can make it! We'll pray for you.. Just hold on tight, trust in HIM and lay all your worries to the LORD for HE will take care of you.. :)

Anyways, just remember my dear best bud, that we are here, we will support you and we'll be praying for you! A superfriend is only one take in the Board Exam! You can do it! Just don't mind the other people.. :) Stay positive! LOve yah!! Thanks for the party!!

And here are some of the pics during her graduation party @ her crib!

Jobless career...

Ok... Summer.. summer. summer.. paved its way.. And of course, this means, hitting off the beach, cozy cold drinks, having a tan, sunblock, shades and of course, vacation! What a great summer if we can go somewhere only to relax and have fun! Would that be great? And yeah of course, with nothing to worry about, no hassles and stress to spoil the entire summer.

But then, speaking of summer, a month already came, its April already but still no job?! OMG.. ! You see, I'm totally impatient of not having a job! I feel useless by all means. My cousin who promised me this job is still left deadly hanging. No news or whatsoever! I feel so impatient because I don't want to be forever stuck in our house with nothing to do but watch our store?? heller, I should be working already but still I feel that am useless, doing the same old routine and nothing new! dUH! Sorry but I am so tired of waiting. Why can't they tell straight to my face that they don't want me in, rather than leave me hanging in the air, letting me expect this job but then its deadly nothing. Sorry for being mean but then how can I move on with my life if I kept on waiting for nothing? I should have moved on with my plans already but still nothing happens.

April just started, hoping somehow, I can move on with a new career and new hopes, not being stuck here for nothing. I feel useless and a burden.

Sorry.. Sorry.. Sorry.. I am just expressing what I feel.. Phew.. Till here... Gud nyt!!!

Happy hippie 16th monthsary

It's our birthday! Yep.. It's our 16th month of togetherness.. Can you imagine? I mean, we had undergone lots of obstacles and tests in our relationship but still here we are, we just celebrated our 16th monthsary. Oh common, if you only knew what we've been through, you can actually say that we won't go this far, but then, really, 1 year and 4 months? Well, I'm happy that we somehow passed the tests of our relationship, we hold tight to each other's promise of not to let go and no matter how many fights we have had, still we're holdin' on. And no matter how fed up I am with his attitude, still I'm holdin' on.. Obviously, yep, we're both holdin' on. :) and that's the promise that we kept no matter what.

Gifts are no longer a big issue for us, I mean, material things are just plainly material. What matters to us is the time being spent together and the bond we had as a couple. Slowly but surely, we knew each other's strength and weaknesses, and the good thing is that, we accept each other's weaknesses. :) So, since I wasn't able to give him a gift during valentines, I decided to give him a ring (which is actually one of the items that we were selling in our store) and a simple letter. It doesn't really cost that much but what matters is that the thought that really counts. :) Anyways, hope he likes it. :) Till here! Just want to update my blog for the status of my lovelife. :)

Till here! Au revoir! Lotsa lovin!!! mwah! mwah!!!! much love!!!

New band, new pick

Get your ipod's and mp4's because a new band is starting to paved its way to stardom. Their songs is a mixed of rock/powerpop. For those who are fanatic of Avril Lavigne, Flyleaf and Paramore, for sure, here's a new pick for you to get tuned in, the new Floridian band "Hey Monday" with their new hit single "Homecoming", "Candles", and "Obvious". You'll totally love this band because the band itself is so special, the vocalist has a phenomenal voice and her vocal tone is near on perfect and every note she hits strongly with great passion in her heart. To introduce you with the band members;

- Cassadee Pope - Vocals
- Mike Gentile - Lead Guitar
- Alex Lipshaw - Rhythm Guitar
- Jersey Moriarty - Bass
- Elliot James - Drums

ain;t it cool to listen to another new taste of songs in your ipod? Honestly, I've been playing them over and over again in my laptop. Can't get enough of them.

Officially: proud tobe a registered nurse!!! :)

I was supposed to be in the speechless mode. I just don't know what to say. Mixed emotions. I've always thought that this would be just a super ordinary day, until.... tedeng.... the result has been released already. I was sooooooo nervous that I didn't know what to react and how to react. I kept thinking about the what if's.. Paranoid as I am, since last night, I kept on thinking about the result. Yesterday, my classmates texted me that it will be released by midnight, I waited but still no result came, then it was moved to 2 am, still I patiently waited and still, frustrated, no result were released. So I slept. Then today, I woke up, feeling my day would be just an extraordinary day as it is, I woke up late (as usual), I ate then I was supposed to leave the house early because I have to pay the water bill but then due to some misunderstanding between me and mingming earlier which eventually led into a fight, instead of leaving the house early, I went back upstairs, and slept. My phone kept on ringing, a message from a classmate of mine asking if the result was released already, since I was frustrated waiting last night, so I hurriedly replied (eyes closed) "not yet". And then, minutes after, another message came, it was from my closest bud, 2yang. She texted me in an excited manner that the result has been released already, to my surprised, I immediately got up from my bed, hurriedly ran down and turned the computer on as fast as I could. Then I typed the site as to where the result can possibly be found, and there it is, right in front of our pc, widescreen, the result were there, right before my weary eyes. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.... This is it (I told myself), the moment of truth, my judgment day of my career.. and then, I opened it. The letter B were divided into 3; B1, B2, B3.. oooppss... then I knew Br is in b3.. So without hesitations I clicked B3. The line up was from Bi down to the last. I first looked at my roomate's surname, and luckily I found her name. ------ Then there was silence in me, I stared the pc for a couple of seconds and then I closed my eyes and went near to my letter Br.. Funny as it is, there are a lot of Braga who took the board exam and to my surprise, call it miracle, praise GOD, I found my name there; "6480 BRAGA, KRYSTAL PEARL HIBAYA" waaaaaaaaaaaaa.... Due to overexcitement and extreme happiness, I cried. I was very happy seeing my name there. I just don't know what to react, I then searched the names of my other groupmates or close friends and classmates, but too bad, some of them were not able to make it. It was bitter sweet. I did passed but some of my closest friends were not there. I felt pity for them, we had the same experiences, we've been together through thick and thin and during the inhouse, they were that studious compared to me, but then, I just couldn't see their names there. T_T

14 of them were not able to make it. It was so sad.. T_T. I cried because I felt pity. I so wanted to comfort them but I just don't know how.. I don't want them to feel that I passed and they did not. I so wanted to hug them for real without uttering a word, but then I decided not for now, I would give them time, time to think about it, and cry.. I know its really frustrating, hurting and disappointing but then, everything happens for a reason. Maybe its not yet their time to pass, or not for now.. Good or bad, only GOD knows.. They just have to continue praying and move on. I know its onerous but it takes time. Take a second chance.. I'm so sad... T_T

Well, on the other hand, my parents were never really that excited or extremely happy when they heard the result. I mean maybe my dad was so proud, but I don't think my mom was. I mean of course she was happy and proud too but something lacks. I never felt nor seen the enjoyment in their faces. Just a simple congratulations and even their facial expressions tells me that they were just happy, plain and simple. I don't know as to their side but that's what I felt, that's my own point of view. My dad, I can tell that he is proud and happy too because he even treat his co-workers and bought pizza for them and in here too. But then when I got home, still all my mother could ever think of are household chores, "Krystal do these, do that" and blah blah.. I don't know but her facial expression is so deadly plain, not even a smile or a glimpse. I don't know, but I never mind them. What matters now, is that I passed. Take one baby!! heheheh..

Anyweiz, looking forward to the start of my career. As for me, I am so thankful to GOD that I passed the Board Exam! Thanks be to GOD! I give back all the glory, honour and praises to you oh LORD!! You are omnipotent GOD! Marvelous! Apart from me I am nothing without HIM who gives me the strength, courage, hope, love, guidance, knowledge and wisdom. Lord, super duper thank YOU!!!!! I LOVE YOU LORD GOD!!! wooooohoooooo!!!

So, till here! R.N Itahl officially now signing off!! Thank YOU LORD!!! thank you friends for all the prayers!!! :) Love you guys!! LOVE YOU LORD!!!

PS: I will totally mark this day, one of my most unforgettable day ever in my entire life!! :)

December 20, 2009 - Friday <----- the day I became a registered nurse!!! :)