Twilight the movie

When this flick was released in the movie house, I was never fascinated to watch the movie, aside from the fact that I'm not really fond of watching movies, movie houses are too expensive already and because my boyfriend's brother has a book on Twilight, he said, the movie was quite changed from the real story in the book. There was a bit of change in the scenes or the script itself perhaps. So, I wasn't really that excited to watch the movie. I received positive comments and feedbacks regarding the movie, hearsays and even a quote from the SMS excerpt from the script in the movie. OMG! Everybody's talking about it, on how good the movie was, the thrill, the excitement, the "kilig" factor and even how inspired they were after watching the movie. At the back of my mind, I was thinking maybe it was more like the story of "The Notebook" but on the other hand, its more on vampires, how can I relate to that? And so, just last night, my brother was buffering this movie, and I was able to grab a chance to take a sneek peek, but eventually, call it funny, it was very inviting. I was able to finish the story, though the ending was so hanging and the thrill would somehow still be prolonged. Yeah right, whatever.

So, I got into this teen's site, and taddah! I bumped into this so called Twilight quiz, it's about which Twilight character reflects you? And oh-no, I got myself into it by answering the quiz. Tsk. tsk.. tsk... , that kinda sound like I'm already a fanatic of it. Oooh-lala... And now, here's the result: Seems like I'm more of Bella Swan.

You are Bella Swan.
Intelligent, mature beyond your years, and selfless, you always think of others before yourself. You can be utterly clumsy at times, and you like spending your time by yourself. You are incapable of staying mad at a person, and at times you can be very stubborn. You are able to make sacrifices easily if it's for the ones you love.

PS: And I've come to realize, it's really more like me. Oh-no.. :) Exactly!!

CHRISTMAS!! It's HIS day!!!

When it comes to the word Christmas, some would remember, gift giving, holiday rush, Christmas sale, bonuses, yummy and delicious foods, Noche Buena, Christmas tree, lights and fireworks, but if you were to asked someone, do they exactly know the reason why we celebrate Christmas? Maybe not all, but only few of them knew the real essence of Christmas. For me, gift giving, parties, bonuses and other stuff are the only perks and add-ons during Christmas, but the real reason behind it is that because we are celebrating the birth of our LORD JESUS CHRIST, our Saviour. When 24th of the midnight strikes the clock, aside from the greetings, hugs and kisses and opening of the gifts, were you able to greet the LORD GOD a HAPPY BIRTHDAY? Have you even whispered a prayer for HIM? Maybe for some yes, and maybe for some only during Noche Buena, but the real picture here is that we celebrate because it is HIS day. The gifts and other perks are GOD's blessing to us, even our lives, it is already a big blessing HE has given to us. So grab the chance to greet Him today, it's never too late ayt?

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY LORD GOD!!!

And to end things up, I want to grab the opportunity to greet each and everyone a MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! Yohooooo!!!!! :) Hugs and kisses to all!! GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!

Pre-occupied

My mind is pre-occupied with a lot of things and a lot of reasons. It's as much as I want not to be reminded of the not-so-important things and stuff, but it's just that it keeps on bugging me. Seems like the weight of the world is around my shoulders, see how heavy it is? Hmmmm... Way to far from what I had imagined. But you see, following my heart doesn't always apply. When it comes to love, I admit, I do the stupidiest things that a woman could have done. I am the queen of the martyrs, and I'm very weak emotionally so when it comes to deciding love matters, I always end up with frustration and broken hearted. In the end, guys only after me with the perks that I have, and the benefits of what they can get. Clear?

What I'm trying to say, people call me the girlfriend-material, because when it comes to relationships, I always give out my very best, in the end, boys take advantage over my feelings resulting to broken hearted. I once broke a heart of someone who loves me and my heart was once broken too by someone I love. So it was already fair, but now, again, I let my heart decide and not my mind. With the experience I have today in my life, my classmates would say, I never learned. I kept on using my heart in the wrong way making me unhappy.

But anyways, when it comes to deciding things and issues in life, heart doesn't always know the right way, sometimes it leads you to the dead end and as much as possible we have to use our minds often to avoid committing the same mistakes, to weigh things out as to what really matters, and to think if this time we really made the right decision, because you know, when it comes to loving, always and always, the heart will rule out, leaving our minds for nothing. But don't let that happen, learn to balance, it's not as always that the heart beats for the right thing. Like what I mentioned earlier, quote and quote "learn to weigh things out" and balance as much as possible. If deciding is very confusing, then that's the time to close your eyes and pray. Because HE alone knows what's best for you, HE will lead you to make the right decisions, so don't fear, because with GOD, everything is possible, He will give you strength and enlighten your minds to make the right decisions and decisions that will surely make you happy. :)

PS: Don't always follow your heart, follow GOD, and surely HE will direct you in the right path!

I do trust him.. Really!

Today, I really had a stressful day. Or was it really that stressful? Well, maybe.. Actually, I woke up early just to make up with him because we were not able to see each other for the past 2 days. So, I went early in their house and stayed there till the whole afternoon. While he was cooking and preparing our lunch, I told him I'll be copying some of the songs that I love from his file. So I knew that the album art image was changed already but then, as I scanned the songs, I was able to bump her face again. Whaat? Again?! Yes, certainly, her face struck me. Well, honestly, I don't care about her anymore. My boyfriend told me that he's totally OVER with it. So, I trust him. But I was hoping that he would change the image in the album art because we once had an argument about it one time. I thought he learned from our argument already but then, nothing really changed.

As I was teasing him, he was then trying to defend his self and just to cover up the issue, he tried to change it by replacing it with my face. I mean, I'm really done and fed up with these issues and I don't have to open it all up over and over again. That would be a great waste of time! Duh!

After that, I knew the pix were old but then as I scanned even more, I saw this new pic of the girl and I was super shocked. I mean, if he really was over with the girl, why were he able to get and grabbed a new pic of her? Is he fooling me or am I that stupid? I don't know, my heart tells me to believe him but my mind keeps on dictating me not to, that it was only his own defense mechanism, that he was just trying to pretend as if he doesn't, when it fact it will always be her! sTUPID! I knew it was really over, and as far as I can see through his efforts, I can really say that he's not into her anymore. Maybe.... But I do believe him, I do trusted him. One thing I just hope, I hope that it's true.

Anyweiz, as for me, I'm done with it. Really.. I'm not hurt anymore, because I'm so fed up with these issues and that makes me numb with it. Ok. It's all up to him already. All I know as for myself that I'm really over it. Okay? No pretentions and no lies. I'm over and totally over with that issues! Fine! :) I trust you! :)

Okay! Well, I don't care anymore. It's all up to him, if he still loves her, then he should set me free. I don't care if I'll be hurt again, I told myself that I should be used to it and getting hurt isn't new to me anymore. Such a cliche...

So much for all the talks, I have to go 'coz I still have to eat late dinner... hehhehe... :)) And so, I have to end up here. Till then!! Mwahugz!!

......XOXO...

Part time writer to a stressful day

Well, while I was surfing and wasting much of my time surfing the net, I saw in this site that they were looking for part time writers. All you have to do is send my resume and that's it. The rest is up to them. But at the next page, an added requirement is a must, that you have to have a sample outcome or an article based on your own opinion and idea, not copied from the other source. While I was scrolling down the page, the given topic was all about "Proud to be a Cebuano". For me, it wasn't really that hard because I myself is a certified Cebuano. But then, as I was thinking, I don't know what to write. I asked myself, "Am I proud to be a Cebuano? In what ways?" Well, it made me reflect for a while. And so, I just don't know what to write. A lot of things I so wanted to scribble down but seems like my mind is so pre-occupied with a lot of things and even a simple question as like this, I couldn't even answer.

Well, maybe I'm feeling this way because I had lack of sleep for the past few days. I woke up early, stress myself whole day and stayed up late at night even at dawn. Is that a balanced life? I don't think so.. :P

Anyways, it's as much as I want to chit chat with you guys, but my body and brain is totally not functioning well. So I guess, I have to go and have a good night sleep, because tomorrow is another day and I need to have a beauty rest because tomorrow I am scheduled for an interview at People Support, because I was referred by Marvin. Even if I heard a lot of negative feedbacks from them but still when it comes to professionalism, I have to be there, show up at the scheduled date and let's just wait and see for the result.

And so, I have to end up here! I am talking that much and time is running out! Phew.. I'm so tired...nahnyt!! Mwahugz!!

In-house stay

It feels so good to be back at your most comfortable zone. For one month or should I say 4 weeks perhaps, we were in the seminary with our section and other section as well. Aside from the fact that we ought to stay in that place, we were able to bond with individuals who have different personalities, but one common thing or goal we have in life and that is to "Pass the Board Exam!". Well, that's the only reason why we were there. Actually, we had fun in our stay there. Our busy schedules had little fun in between and flexible and jolly as we are, we were able to meet the other sections as well.

A lot of things I missed most while I'm away from the outside world, my family, boyfriend, friends, shopping, mall hopping, sight seeing, and most of all, internet.. Others were bringing their laptops with them, well, one things for sure, I miss blogging. There are a lot of things runnin' in my mind that I just want to scribble them all but I just can't. I so wanted to put all the thoughts that kept on bugging me and all the feelings and mixed emotions I so wanted to express.

Though being separated from my own comfort zone, I was still able to connect myself from the others and feel myself comfortable to the place. Honestly, my first night was totally not so relaxing. But then, as time goes by, we were able to adjust to the way of living there. And now, I even missed everything in that place. All the happenings and the experiences. I really had fun even when we were away from the outside world. The inside world taught me so many things and I had learnt from the different stories from them too. It was so cool.. And it made me realize that we were so lucky to stay in that place because the people who cared for us, nurtured us and fed us very well. I super thank the clinical instructors who have been very patient to us, who cared for us and for understanding our immaturities and differences. We were so lucky and blessed to have them around. I also would like to personally thank my classmates for the memories we had shared. Though it was only in a short span of time but then again, the captured memories will forever be embedded in my heart. I will surely treasure the memories we had. And lastly, I thank GOD for the opportunity to be with them.

Finally, to sum it all up, one thing that we look forward into, and that is "To Pass the Board Exam!". We all want to pass the board exam, we all want to still see each other during the oath taking. We all want to be nurses in the future years to come and work abroad or serve the country. Our country needs our help.. I pray that we will all make it together, we've been through in good times and bad times, and we don't want someone will be left behind. We went this far together and we will all finished the race together. I know, in GOD's perfect time, we will all pass! Praise GOD!!

God Bless to all the future nurses! Section I 100%! We will make history!

Missing...

Another day has passed already.. I thought it would be over for that fight.. But still... It's getting nowhere but end.. I haven't receieved any text, or call or even a message droppin' by... Am I that important to him? Or am I still important in his life? (T_T).. Yesterday, I could no longer help it, so I bawl... I cried.. and cried.... I thought today will be much better.. but then.. it's getting worst... I wanted to text him, but then.. I just want to see if I'm really that important to him.. 'Coz all our fights, as far as I could remember, I'm the one who will always start asking for sorry or reconciliation... But this time, its quite surprising 'coz I let my pride rule myself too..Honestly speaking.. I'm so dying to hear from him. Even text that says ok or any emoticon, that will be ok for me... But no sign from him yet... I'm so sad... Depressed.. I just don't know what to do.. How can I concentrate when it's him that I've always thought of? I just couldn't understand as to what I am reading... Few days left and I'll be away for a while.. I don't want this to happen to us.. If time will come that I have to leave, I wanted to have a peace of mind, a reconciliation not silence..

What did I do? I waited for him, but what? He never showed up.. T_T I never want this to happen... I really hate it.. I thought he's different, 'coz its what he would always prove to me.. But then, he's not... He's just the same... same like any other guys I've met.. They're just gonna step into my life, make me fall so hard and suddenly would leave me hanging.. Why do they have to do this? Why do they have to make it hard for me? (T_T)....

It's so hard to pretend that I am not hurt, but the truth is that I'm totally hurt... Here at home, I pretend that everything's normal when in fact, that I'm almost dying... I tried to control my emotions but when I'm all alone, I cry... WHy do I have to feel this pain? Why do you have to hurt me this deep? And why do you have to walk away without leaving a word? What did I do to you?

Lot's of questions, but no single answer came up... I sometimes wish he would surprise me at home with big smile on his face, a warm tight hug and kiss oh so tender and sweet.. I've come to realize, especially now... I guess that's too impossible to happen.. After all what had happened.. I just have to live with my dreams.. 'coz now, it's only in my dreams where I could hug him tight, kiss him nonstop and hear the words "I love you" from his mouth... And if that would happen, I never would want to wake up.. Maybe just maybe, I wanted to have deep sleep forever.... (T_T) Reality check: It's too impossible to happen already... But they said... you should never lose hope.. You have to have faith..

But one thing I know now... I am hurt... And I so wanted to cry... I badly want to see him, hug him and kiss him, not just only in dreams but in reality... (T_T) (sigh)....

Terrible day

Today, was one of the worst days of my life.. I've waited for someone and didn't even show up. I was totally devastated.. It's ok for me to wait, I can wait no matter how long but assuring that person will be comin'. I waited for nothing... I wasted my time there waiting only for nothing.? Come to think of it.. Isn't it stupid? How many times I let someone wait for me, but in the end, I'm sure that I will be showing up.. But what he did, he never came.. I even begged for him, because I badly need to see him.. All the long wait, hunger, boredom and pain in the feet will be okay as long as he will be there.. But he never came. He let his pride rule him... T_T... He already bid goodbye as for now... I guess this will be the start for the two of us not seeing together, so that we won't be missing each other badly by the time I'll be in the review house.. But I guess, its a bit too early to say goodbye..

I admit.. I really wanted to stop him, be with him no matter what, be by his side while there is still time.. But he's pushing me away already.. He even left me final words of encouragement or was it? I don't know... I went home straight and while I am inside the van, I didn't noticed that my eyes are bursting out with tears already... and then... tears started to fall... Thank God the van was very dark.. nobody saw me crying.. I cried not because I waited for nothing, I cried because he let his pride control over him.. (again...). Can't he not swallow his pride? (T_T)....

Now, hours had passed, not even a text came from him. Even though he left those farewell words, still, I'm hoping... Hoping that someday he would give up his pride or might as well lower it down.. It would only destroy him.. and the people he love... I wanted to see him before I go.. If only I could... I hope so... (T_T)

So, like what the image says, it might be a terrible day for me today, but tomorrow it will never be the same.. And I'm hoping that tomorrow will be a good one... Maybe.. with or without him.. But I even wish that I'll be with him... Till then... goodbye.

Officially!!

Finally!!! At last!!! I am now officially a Junior Member!! Wohoooo!!! This calls for a celebration!! Victory!! For many times I tried posting and posting and replying to the threads, joining such topics and answering some where-in-the-world-questions, now, I can proudly say, my effort has been paid off! (Phew)....

Actually, you may not be able to relate of what I am saying here, but of course, I wouldn't be too selfish not to share anything to you.. It goes like this.. There's this site (Philippine based only), that gives you the access to buy, sell or trade stuffs and others... It's like an E-bay in U.S or Amazon perhaps.. But what facinates me the most is that most of the users comin' from Cebu. So there would be no shipping hassle. But there's one thing about this site, it's just that, inorder for you to sell some of your stuff( may it be new, used, or whatever..), you have to become an active member first, and so.. since I am very hesitant to sell some of my used and unused stuff, I really worked hard in order for me to become a Junior Member, and just 2 days earlier, I was finally able to make it! Weeeeeeeee.... I'm so happy... :)

I know, it sounds so shallow, but you see, little things can make me happy... :) And now that I'm already a big part of it, I just couldn't imagine myself selling some stuffs and doing meet-ups.. I kinda remember myself way back when I was still a newbie. And this is it. And lastly, before I became a Junior member, I had lots of plans on what to sell and everything, but now that I am already into it, things are like runnin' out of my way.. But it's ok.. For me, what really matters is that I got what I wanted already... I'm happy and contented with it already.. :)

So, I guess, I'll end up here.. Just want to share my excitement and happiness, who knows, you probably had experienced what I had experience, at least, we can share times ten happiness and excitement as well.. Got to go.. My butts kicking me off here.. Take care!!!

Insecurities

"Insecurity is a feeling of general unease or nervousness that may be triggered by perceiving oneself to be unloved, inadequate or worthless (whether in a rational or an irrational manner)." We all do have our own little insecurities. Ayt? I mean, we are not perfect human beings, even models have their own insecurities too. Honestly, I am also insecure by others too. But how do we handle our little insecurities? How do we deal with them? I guess, we all do have different coping strategies on how to deal with insecurities, may it be beauty, school, work, family, or even LOVE. Oh common, we all undergo that feeling wherein we feel less confident about ourselves, or we feel intimidated about the others, or sometimes the other way around. =)

I've read an article by Nellie Graham, it talks about how to overcome insecurities, and he made mention that "Insecurities are bad thoughts that should be eliminate in order to bring out the best of ourselves." And as I've read in his articles, he cited some mantras that you can say to yourself over and over again only to overcome these insecurities.

So, here are some:

1. I won't make any situation perfect – We tend to be afraid that everything would not turn out right if we approach someone we are attracted to, but how would we know if we don't pursue at all? Not everything would be perfect, but at least we can try to learn from it. You need to take out the pressure you unnecessarily built on yourself.

2.I am not shy – Shyness inhibits you to explore more about your potential in dating. Take the risk and get to know people. You can start by greeting your neighbors or the convenience store attendant. Slowly build your confidence.

3.I created my own insecurity – Remember that most of your insecurities have no meaning nor reason at all. They merely exist because you let them roam around your head.

4.I have the power of what I think and feel – Do not let anyone or anything control that power that only you possess. You have the power to choose whether to feel bad or feel good about yourself. If you want to live a good life, which would you choose?

Say these things to yourself in front of the mirror everyday so that insecurities will be washed away. Remember, insecurities do come and go and its all up to you if you let them stay in your mind. Look, at least be optimistic, feel good about yourself and feel great. Try not to compare yourself with the others, we are all created uniquely, so better bring out the best in you. Face the world, and tell the world how beautiful you are.

I know it's not that easy, but just have a little patience and faith in yourself. You can do it. If others can do it, why can't you. And now I'm talking, as if I'm not Ms. Little Insecure too. That's how I call myself. Bitter it may sound but surely its definitely true. Well, its me and its all I could ever be..

Tension's high, insomnia and Issues

Phew.. The tension's getting high. I'm done with all the requirements and I'm also done with the filing for the upcoming board exam. Honestly, I am not that prepared, I so wanted to back out and kick my butt off during the intensive review but my friends as well as my family wanted me to really pursue with it, they said "Nobody is prepared for it". Nah, I don't think so. I mean, not prepared in the sense that I feel like I had amnesia, I forgot everything. I wanted to read but then I just can't concentrate 'coz actually I really don't know where to start. GRRR... And board exam is fast approaching. Now, I feel so uneasy and uncomfortable. Well, to make it worst, I've been thinking a lot about the expectations of my family (because they believe I can do it), my friends (2 of my girl friends passed already and became a nurse), my boyfriend (who totally believes in my capability and intelligence), his parents (expected too much from me), my classmates (they always say that we really have to pass and that we will all pass. ) Oh common! I will surely give my best of the best, pushing my best luck and praying for the LORD'S guidance.

OK. The issue here is that, I wanted to become a nurse. I admit, nursing wasn't really my choice of course but then as time goes by (during my college years); with all the hardworks, sleepless nights, extensions and the never ending requirements, I can say that I have to pass the board exam and that I have to become a NURSE! I have to pursue and achieve this dreams, and that's the time I tend to love nursing. Hopefully, nursing loves me too.. Hihihihi.. LOL...

Now, for 1 month, I'll be away for a meantime in this worldy world. We will be having our in-house (our intensive review) and we will be in a seminary where there is no cellphone, no line of communication in the outside world, no calls, no text, no visitors, visiting time is scheduled and most of all no internet and that would mean no new post for the whole month of November.

Anyways, I did scan some of the reviewers that I borrowed from my classmates who just recently passed the June board exam but then again, I lacked focused because my time is totally divided. I have to spend time with my boyfriend because I'll be away for 1 month and I will surely miss the important events in our relationship, our 1 year anniversary and his birthday, so that is why, while I'm still here in this free world, I have to spend maximum time with him 'coz we will be away for the meantime. And so, my free time has been used, instead of studying, I am focused on him. Aside from that, I can only read every weekend because it is my schedule to watch our store. I can only scan for a few hours, and then watch tv and scan again and again and again. I tried to take down only the important keypoints to keep me track from the lessons that I have read already.

Now what? Don't know. It's really late and I'm still wide awake. I can't sleep because I had my period and my head is tooootally aching and insomnia is killing me. I'm just consuming my time surfing the net to make me feel sleepy. Duh!

So, that's it. Actually, somethings bothering me but I just can't clear this mess up. My head is pre-occupied with a lot of things and issues that I have to deal on, it's like my mind is about to explode!! But nah, I won't allow myself to stress too much on issues that aren't worth to deal on. It's just a big waste of time.

I guess, I have to end up here. I'm talking too much and now good at least, I'm a bit relaxed already. :) I was able to express what I wanted to say, though not all but at least I was able to loosen up. So, until here.. 'Till then 'coz time is ticking fast. Got to go!! Au revoir!

oUT OF control!

Phew... I just don't know where to start.. I've been so busy these days and I felt like I'm totally out of control.. Anyweiz.. I have lots of chika's to say but it's just that I'm runnin' out of time and I still have to make test questions.. But as of now.. Got to go... Lots of work to accomplish.. I'll just post a new one soon... Lab yah!

Work....

At last! I'm done with my teaching demo. The past few days, we've been so relaxed, we are paid while sitting and relaxing.. You see, we just went to work just to sit and do nothing. We are totally relaxed, and got nothing to do but bond with the group. I belong to the grammar class with me Tiying... Actually, we are all girls except for ANDY, our only guy... Books and topics were already given a while ago. And by Monday, hopefully, the students will be arriving and we will be acquainting with them, chit chat.. and a lot more.. We will start the lecture on the third day or fourth day.. So this is it. But still, in two weeks time, they will still observe us and if there is any feedbacks regarding to us, then its buhbye,, But if not, then we can still remain in their company. I'm crossing my fingers, praying that I can still stay.. Well, here is the snap of our group, the Grammar Elite...

(L-R) Georgina, Love, Chu, Shugar, Cyndi, Niña, Gay, Me, and Lourelane.

Updates and all this stuff@!!

It's like this... I'm stuck in the middle of the night trying to update all my blogs, profile's and information about anything to everything.. And how can I possibly miss this out? Hmmm.. Of course, if we relate this to a food, this is the main course!! Yummy... :) Funny isn't it, when you try to relate yourself in the world of blogging and you just can't help but laugh at it 'coz you seem to be so distress with all the updates that you have to do? Whatever... :P But somehow, flexible as I am, I was able to relate myself in this world of blogging and technology (Thank GOD our internet connection is still working)... Good.. at least I can start as to where I have left.. So got nothing more to say.. It's getting really late and I think I have to sleep now. SO much for all this updates, I'm getting more dizzy.. ZZZZZZZZZ...

Back to school!!

Pack up all your things 'coz its back to school already. Certainly, prepare all your notebooks, fluffy pens and jot down all your needs/requirements for this school year. And basically it's back to homeworks, projects and sleepless nights over and over again. As for others, it's a yeehey, 'coz back to school means $$$$ allowance. As for me, I'm looking forward to a new job. Yep, the jobless days is over, I'm about to move on for a new career in my life (not related in my course). Of course, I'm about to try something new, something different (for a change); well at the same time, I'm preparing myself for the upcoming board exam, though I'm really not that prepared and my mind is not in condition in studying, I don't think all the things that I have read will surely be remembered (hope so....) Well, that's it for me, I'll be starting out next week. Hope it will turn out good and hopefully, I'll be able to survive and have a good and positive feedbacks towards my students...

Ps: My new job is about teaching Koreans, ESL for short. Looking forward to start next week..

Pretender

Self-confessed pretender.. That's me.. I have to pretend that I'm okay even though I'm hurting. It's the only way I can get through with it. Why am I still feeling this way? Am I that hard to be understood? I just don't get it.. I simply can't get it... This pain keeps on haunting me.. constantly.. Why are you hurting me? You said you won't hurt me, but why are you doing this to me? Why are you making things so complicated, making this things a bit too hard for me. What did I do? Tell me.. What should I do so that I can no longer feel this pain? You're the only that have caused it, and you're the only one who could ease the pain away... Damn it actually hurts.. Over and over again.. It's killing me slowly... Please don't do this to me.. Will you stop hurting me just for once? I just can't get enough of this pain.. :'(

A simple word yet it means a lot...

Something to look forward to

Words of encouragement

Here's something for you to inspire on: Life is all about ups and downs. Always keep your feet on the ground, stay humble; don't be too arrogant. Well we always have different sides of story, we all face different challenges and learn to handle criticism with a smile. If people hurt you, revenge will not do, rather kill them with kindness, remember it is biblical that you have to love your enemy. Be a friend, learn to listen, appreciate and comfort. Never leave any promises if you ought to break them. Learn from your experiences, like what they say experiences is the best teacher. If you think nobody loves you, well think it over and over again, someone loves you up there.. Count your blessings, learn to be contented. Life is full of challenges and trials, just don't give up, you can make it, you just have to have faith.. Grab some opportunities if there is any. Life is a once in a lifetime experience, so live as if everyday is the last 'coz you could never take back the time. Treasure each moments, seize the day, laugh hard, share what you have learned, grow up, there's always something to look forward, if problems try to pull you down, always look on the bright side and lastly, be yourself, don't pretend somebody you're not. You are a unique creation of GOD. GOD loves you, we all do... :) Till here.. Keep smiling.. Enjoy!!

Not so important...

Nothing really important about this blog of mine.. I feel so sad.. My day turned out to be very upsetting. My boyfriend got mad at me for cancelling our last minute date. I made a promise something that I was able to break (the lunch date).. So sad, he got mad at me. I made his day worst. He never bother to text at all nor let me know how is he doing or whatsoever.. I was so damn worried, I kept on saying sorry 'coz it's not my fault. I did everything I could, but its just that my mom wouldn't allow me, so there's nothing I can do but stay at home. Even up to now, he never left any message or a call at all.. I've been pushing myself already to him, but still no response. Should I stop? I left a message in his comment box in the friendster, I told him that I'll just give him time to cool down.. Am I doing the right thing? =( I'm so damn worried.. Does he even feel the same way? grrr..... I feel like breaking down.. What else does he want? I just don't know what to do.. =(

I couldn't share this to anyone 'coz I know they can't do anything about it. The problem is too personal. All I could ever do is just cry my heart out, so that I could't feel this pain... Damn it kills me...

Nohnoh (front) and Tanya (back)...

I miss my dog Nohnoh, my dog is the only one I can cry on, the only one who understands me and all these things that I'm going through, my listening ear, my bestfriend.. I know Nohnoh is happy in heaven right now.. I miss you Nohnoh Ate... =(

Cebu; the place you don't wanna miss..

The Queen City of the South

Cebu is totally a place you don't wanna miss. Aside from the fact that I am a resident in Cebu; it's unique view, white sand beaches, accomodating and comfortable hotels, and of course, to top it all, the Cebuanos who are very hospitable in nature. With its emerald islands, breathtaking beaches around you with their natural beauty. Sparkling stretches of white sand and crystal waters lie in wait for you in this seaside sanctuary. Do everything or do absolutely nothing, the choice is yours. To top it all you can make Cebu your playground by the sea and unearth an oasis full of unexpected treasures.

Well, I've been living in Cebu for 20 years in my life now and I can say that Cebu is the nicest place to live in. It's the place where you can say that you want to stay for the rest of your life. No wonder, visitors, foreign nationals and balikbayan just can't get rid in coming back to Cebu. Cebuanos are talented people, aside from their own language, which is Cebuano, they know how to speak Tagalog and English as well, talented as we are huh. Well, lots of well-known personalities came from Cebu. Anyweiz, Cebu is more than just a place of relaxation and adventure, surely, it's where your heart will stay. Have fun!! And may you enjoy your stay here in Cebu!

Mt. Manunggal expedition

Wooohoooo!!!!!! At last! Victory is sweet! Finally, I did it! Phew>.. It wasn't that easy huh. Mt. Manunggal expedition finally paved its way. And yes, I've been there. It was a one of a kind experience. I swear, it was really cool. We made our own trail and with all the heavy backpacks that we're bringing and other stuff, feels like I'm joining for the SURVIVOR and indeed luckily I survive. It was a long walk, of course with the blessing of the rain, the slippery rocks, the plants that kept on hitting our legs as we walk along (of course, they too are of the big help 'coz we cling to them when we were about to be slipped), the wet soiled that's quite hard to step on because its slippery, the people I am with, and lastly, the adventure that's totally unforgettable. I had fun with the group I am with, but it's even more memorable when all my superfriends are with me, joining our adventure. It's so sad that they were not able to make it. Haaaii.. Anyweiz.. Looking forward for another rocky mountain adventure. And of course, a pic to remember our adventure! Till another adventure soon... :)

Another adventure to look forward to

SUMMER.. SUMMER.. SUMMER!!! Can't get rid of summer! Tan lines, bikini's, cold drink at hand, beach bums and o, lala, to top it all, the heat of the sun.. Phew... First summer of got nothing to do. Well, I've been spending my summer to the maximum time. From moalboal to malabuyoc and now.. we're up to the mountains.. Yep, indeed, we're going to Mt. Manunggal! Yipeeee... So what's the fuss with it? Hmmm.. adventure and fun!! yeah ryt.. It's been my first time and sad to say, I'm the only girl and there are only a few of us.. But anywayz, I'm up to the view and the experience.. So excited to it... pictures to capture moments and memories that will last a lifetime.. See you then at Mt. Manuggal!!

Yummy donuts!

Who loves to eat donuts? Well, I do.. I'm craving for the sweetness and the taste of Strawberry sprinkled and chocolate sprinkled. YUMMY!!! And its not that expensive, it costs only 10 pesos each. Affordable and within the budget. You can try different flavors for a change. A sure taste that will satisfy your hunger and sweet tooth. :)

Farewell party

the originals...
group 1
with ms. Pino..

ok... Our last minute farewell party eventually did happened... It was the last event of our section and surely, a lot of classmates of mine miss the last bonding together as a class. Or was it really a bonding after all? The shingles were there, of course, how could they miss it, same as for the BJ's... And of course, "us" the hep2x? hahahha... kidding.. anyweiz, it wasn't really meant to be called as "bonding" because everybody had different groups as to where they are comfortable with. As for me, flexile as I am but still, I just can't leave my group, we call ourselves the original. Because we are the survivors of group 2 when it comes to outing and adventure... And we went home early because we have different appointments to attend to.. And so, we left early.. I know, that they will still enjoy.. It's the last... and thanx for all the memories guys!! Till then..

Our last minute pool party!!

For the last minute of our college days, our group decided to have a short break for a while. It was suppose to be re-united of the original group two's but too bad they have to attend something so important. So we invited over the group one's to come and join with us... It sure was really fun though we're not that many but these guys knows how to have fun! Totally certified cam-whores as we are. Strike for a pose here, solo there, groupee here, wacky pic there and a lot more. These people just can't get rid of the cam. Anyweiz.. though others were not able to make it, we are looking forward to another outing this time, we are expecting no excuses from them because its for the last time that we would be able to spend time together as a group.. I'll surely miss them all...

Me and Riza striked for a pose!

'coz we are bringing sexy backs!!!

FRUSTRATING LIFE!!!

A lot of things occupies my mind lately... I'm borbarded with lots of problem... I feel so pressed out, feels like the world hates me, feeling empty, out-of-place, and got nowhere to hide. Sitting somewhere here, alone and so wanted to cry, somehow it finds relief to the pain I feel... It's more than a prick, I'm deeply wounded, I LOST THE BATTLE, and I don't know if I could still be able to stand again. I feel so down, this pain is killing me. I am in the brink of loneliness. I wanted to runaway and escape, but then I've come to realize, it will only worsen my problem. What should I do? What have I done? I am in the state of denial and slowly, I'm losing my own self-confidence and my self-esteem is getting down.

I dont' know as to where I am standing right now. Is this just a feeling that every normal individual feels? The water is so calm and the sunset reminds me of GOD.. Now I know, HE's all I ever needed... Lately, I've been so busy with the wordly place and I felt like I left him. I wanted to scream out loud and cry!!!!! All my dreams are falling apart, I've been a failure and all my life, all I ever made was all of the wrong decisions, or should I say, dead-end for me! Stupid as it is, I so wanted to drown myself from the river of tears, my own tears.... I feel like crying... But no single tear would fall... My heart is totally aching... Damn with this feeling.. It's the end of all my dreams! Too bad I've been living my life with all regrets and stupidity!!!! :(

College years is almost over...

What do you do when you are at the acme of pressure? Do you usually combat with pressure or just simply go with the flow? In my case, graduation is fast approaching, and as a senior, we are being pressured with a hectic sked, never ending filing of completion duty, quizzes every now and then, requirements, and a lot more. In order for you to graduate and be able to reach your goals, you have to survive in the battle in order to succeed and surpass the trials. March is about to come, and I can smell the scent of the toga and I just can't help but realize the fact that soon enough, I'll wave goodbye to the university that equipped me with knowledge, great skills and positive attitude. And yet, it's not yet too late to spend the rest of our school days to the maximum. Last minute adventure and fun always excites us. I've been with these people for 4 years, though its not quite too long but its like, everyday, I've been so used to upon seeing them, and soon enough, I'll be waking up for another adventure in my life, deal with another set of people, blend with different yet new personalities and welcome myself to the mature world. Haaaaii.... It feels so weird, time seems to fly so fast, it's like I was still a freshman, way back during my first time I step in the university. Senior years is very much different. It's like adjusting to the life of the mature world. And months from now, I'll be waving goodbye to the people whom I spent my college years with, though we had little misunderstandings and chaos, one things for sure, I'll surely miss my college life. I had fun and lots of experiences to cherish. And soon enough, I won't be waking up for the same reason and that is going to school. College years is almost over, and its time to adjust myself to the world of the mature, work and family. And I guess, its not yet too late to spend the rest of the remaining days with my classmates and my groupmates. This time, it's about time to forget the past, cherish on what is present and looking forward with the future. So 'till then, it's been a nice experience goin' on a journey with you all. So thanx a lot and see you along the streets of New York or whatever state you plan to go to or probably, be colleagues of the same institution. Have fun and enjoy!

Valentines Day...

In the month of February, what's the first thing that came across in your mind with this month? Hmmmmm.. Of course, Heart's day! One thing reminds me of Valentines, the symbol heart which usually represents L-O-V-E!! Ayeeeeeeee....... Preparations and reservations are usually the big highlights of this event. Of course, chocolates, flowers, teddy bears or stuff toys and a lot more to mention, is of the highest demand during this month. Every girl hopes and wishes and pretty exicted to receive gifts from their lovers, and as to those single and searching, they try to treat their own selves or spend with their single friends too! This day is not just for lovers, it's for everyone. It's for the singles, lovers, married couples or even children. The main thought here is simply to spread LOVE to everyone. And that's just it. And lastly, Valentines wouldn't be a Valentines without a hug and a kiss from special someone. So here's a hug and kiss to all of you, I guess it's not yet too late to greet, but for me, everyday, I'm spreading out love to each and everyone.!!! Love you all!! And have fun!

ps: and ei, if in case you'd like to share on how your date turned out, feel free to leave comments. I'd be willing to listen.. So feel free, don't hesitate.

Stressed up....

It's almost eleven in the morning and still I haven't gone to sleep. I was in the graveyard shift last night and went home around 6:30 in the morning today. Due to some demands, I have to finish a care study of zalyn, like what I've promised her. It's in fast track because tomorrow is their deadliest deadline for the draft, and so I have to finish it on time. I can't make it by tomorrow because we still have a review in Mental Health Nursing. Im so dizzy right now, hungry and my head is totally aching, going to bed and taking a rest would be the only solution but then, I have to meet up with brewz today. He said he will be waiting for me, and so I have to be there for him 'coz I know he's frustrated right now. I am so tensed and I just don't know what to do. I'm bombarded with a lot of stuff and I think I'm about to be sick... I am so pale, I lacked rest, I'm physically weak, emotionally depressed and confused. I just don't know what to do... I still have to run some errand, do some laundry, and a lot that I could mention. Grrrr.. I think I'm going to be sick!!! My head is about to explode, and I feel like screaming out loud because of my stressful life!!! I'm so pre-occupied with a lot of things... :'( I am so tired... So stressed up... And I guess, ending up here will make me a lot better. I guess I should eat, I'm hungry already... Buhbye for now.... Till then..

Midterm Exam

What can I say? Midterm is fast approaching.. Seems like yesterday was just our prelim and now, we're moving on to our midterm.. Phew... Tomorrow is our midterm exam for our major subjects.. And sure did, I'm not that prepared.. Today, we just had our review and post test was done after. Grrr.. I'm not totally conditioned in studying.. My mind seems to be so occupied with a lot of things... And besides it's too late to study... I guess I should review.. at least.. I would be able to familiarize important key terms and recall our discussion for that particular chapter.. That if I could recall... :) Well then, cramming won't do... It's just gonna worsen the situation.. It's just gonna twist my mind and confused me even more... And lastly, it'll just be an additional burden in my brain and in my part.. Well maybe, I would just sleep early. Seems like I'm a bit sleepy now.. Till here..
Au revoir!!

PS: Just wish me luck for the exam! And help me pray that the Lord God will guide me and give me knowledge and wisdom for tomorrow's exam! Phew!!! :) This is it... :)

Seminar..

Waking up in the right side of the bed, leaving the house wearing a smile on the face, and arriving school just on time, that makes life even more beautiful.. SUddenly, announcing the last minute seminar! W-H-A-T??? We were required to wear smart casual, and we still have classes up till the evenin'. Everybody's so stressed up on what to wear. No sleeveless, no revealing clothes, and high heels is a must. You see, I still have to look around for smart casual outfits. 'Coz I just couldn't think that I have one. Aside from waking up in the right side of my bed, everything turned out to be stressful. My boyfriends about to pick me up, and still the tension moves on. I just can't wait to hurry and rush to the malls to find a perfect outfit. An outfit simple yet elegant and glamorous. I tried looking everywhere in the department stores, but I just couldn't find any.. I was about to cry and still I never lose hope. Thank God my guy is with me, he helped me find an outfit just right enough to be called "hot"; hot in the sense that I would be simple yet beautiful. And I landed on a boutique. I thought I would then be relieved upon seeing one, but to my surprise it costs much. Not to mention, for the entire 20 years in my life, for the first time, I bought a blouse of-not-so-worthy-of-the-price. I thought I would be happy by then, perfect fit, perfect look but... not so perfect price. FYI: For practicality means, its not worth it. But anyweiz, it still look good...

The following morning, I woke up late. I was into rush 'coz I was about to be late. I was riding a taxi with a sad face, knowing its an additional expense and still I wasn't over with last night... Sigh** So far, I was able to sign the attendance, and even posed and took some pictures. Here's a remembrance to the seminar and to the outfit as well!! Hahahahaha...

I am BEAUTIFUL!!

Okay, BEAUTY became an issue eversince. It's totally a big issue in our part (girls). Of course, BEAUTY is not just skin deep. It's not necessarily needed to be skinny just to be called beautiful Or perhaps, be updated with the fashion trend and be labelled as fashionista just to be called beautiful. You see, beauty simply means confidence in ourselves - indisputable confidence that only comes from being comfortable as yourself and not worrying too much about what other people might think. It is timeless and it comes from the spirit and it is an attitude that comes from within; from an optimism and belief in your life.

How bout you? What does beauty means to you? When you heard the word beauty, does the face of Mr. and Mrs. Smith's Angelina Jolie pop into your head, or do you remember the gentle, wrinkled face of your 80-year old granny instead? When you look into the mirror, would you say that the face staring back at you was beautiful? How you wish (we often say). Ayt?

For years, media has bombarded us with the typical images of beauty - models with long, straight hair, stick-thin figures (skinny as to what they call), smooth white skin and free from scars, and seemingly flawless features. This image of beauty is a very narrow and stifling stereotype. Perfect as it is, but hey, we are only human, we are not perfect and most girls don't fit this image, but are still considered beautiful and the truth is, beauty comes from different shapes, sizes and ages. So be confident with yourself.

Real beauty is all about loving and accepting yourself for who you are. It's not just about how you look (of course that matters too), but also about how you live your life. You are beautiful when you are loved, when you do things you are passionate about, when you are kind to others and when you exude confidence. Don't waste too much time criticizing yourself - use it to improve your relationships and fulfill your dreams. Remember, there is something beautiful in everyone. Celebrate your own personal beauty to remind the world of what real beauty is all about.

And remember, everyone is unique. I am beautiful, you are beautiful, we are all beautiful! Say it loud and let the whole world know how beautiful you are! Be proud for who you are, 'coz you are GOD's wonderful creation! Stand tall girl!!

When guys fall in love...

They said, guys always whine about how girls are hard to understand. I'm sure everyone's sick of the "yes means no and no means yes" complaints and all the crazy jokes guys crack about girls being the greatest mystery in the world... Agree? But come to think of it, guys are pretty hard to decipher too! Really hard!! Hehehhe.... You see, they just keep it by their own, seems like they have their own world. They can be confusingly caring when they only see you as a friend and they can be mysteriously distant when they're madly inlove.

Like what they say, when guys fall in love, it doesn't usually happen in a snap. They go through a maze of thoughts with many different stages.. Unlike us girls, we're too different from them. Some stages lead somewhere, while others lead to dead ends. To the girls out there, if your guy is in one of these stages, you can be sure that the possibility of falling in love is very, very real. And although some may skip certain steps or go through them in different sequences, these are the main stages he goes through when he falls in love with you..

Remember girls.. "There is no bad boy in courting.. Guys always put their best foot forward." So better get to know your guys very well... Because they are always at their best in front of you! :) And hey... no matter how bad the guy is... there's always a good side of him that will capture you the most! And to end this up, they're totally not that bad after all... If you'll just get to know them better!! Have fun! And have a prosperous NEW YEAR!! Enjoy!!

Au revoir!! Jah bLess!!