Showing posts with label death. Show all posts
Showing posts with label death. Show all posts
First timer
The moment we knew that Tatay Carling died, I then told my partner that we should go home. I haven't talk to him that much but I wanted to pay respect to their family and loved ones. And so, days after we heard the news, we hurriedly went to Samar for his wake. Abandoned my work (with my boss permission of course) that I'll be away for a week. I could somehow bring my work with me while I'm there but sad to say, they told me that network coverage there is unpredictable, let's say you are standing outside the house but still you only have 1 bar of signal that seems to be turning on and off, on and off and again and again. That is why I told my boss earlier that I just don't want to make certain promises that I can continue work because of the poor reception or signal of both Globe and Sun.
And so, we left Cebu last Tuesday, March 12 around 4AM via Supercat going to Ormoc. The boat ride is about 3-4 hours. I'm not really that prepared to go because I am worried with my work leaving me last minute rush in finishing my task. And when we were boarded I even had to take care of my baby, looking after him, chasing him and all sorts of motherly stuff. By the time we arrived at the seaport, we then hired a van or a SUV rather so as to make our trip a bit comfortable headed to Tacloban for 2-4 hours drive. It was a long drive all the way from Ormoc to Tacloban. Fell asleep in an uncomfortable position and as I woke up, resulting to stiff neck.
After 4 hours, we arrived in Tacloban. Went directly to Duptours trying to catch up on their 12noon trip. Luckily we were able to make it and then waited for an hour for the van. After 1 hour and 30 minutes, the van arrived and again, another long journey begins, the travel time from Tacloban to Umawas is around 3-4 hours with 1 short stop-over. Luckily, the van is not that full so we were sitting one seat apart. Finally, I was able to have a good nap for few hours and around 4PM, we arrived in Umawas.
They cried when they saw the coffin that welcome them in the front door. There was a moment of silence, I stood there and was being silent the whole time. And so, we spent our days talking, playing with the kids, going to the beach which pretty explains the pictures that you will be seeing. Sunday came when its time for the burial. The house is filled with crying ladies and kids and families making their last wishes before the coffin will be finally close. That moment when you will see the person you love at the very last minute. It hurts and I admit, tears were welling up my eyes, then I cried. I wasn't really bawling but I cried because I realized how valuable our life is, I realized we only have a short time left to spend time with our family because we can never predict what will happen next. I felt sad but I know that he is with the good LORD and that he could no longer feel the pain in the earth. I know that he is happy with GOD. May you rest in peace Tatay Carling.
My apologies loveys for making this post a bit long. This may not seem quite catchy or something that will pull your interest but just wanted to share my thoughts and my experience last week wherein I was missing for a week. This now explains why.. and the pictures that you will be seeing are captured moments in my first stay in Umawas.
Would you know my name, if I saw you in heaven?
Lately I lost my appetite in blogging. I realized I lost the essence of what truly is to blog and that all I ever wanted was to compete with other bloggers and I somehow forgot the real reason why I started this blog in the first place. Apart from my hectic schedule with work, I went to Samar to extend my deepest condolences to my partner's family. Stayed there for a week with poor network coverage, no TV and no internet connection. All I ever did was look after my baby, eat, stroll in the beach and sleep. I then realized that technology have made a big impact in the society today. Based on my experience, without technology, everything is so dull and boring and I feel uneducated, illiterate. I don't mean it in a negative way but these are based on my own opinion. Of course books are always there to save you from boredom. But I then realized how hard it is for me growing up in a city and all of sudden live in a province with no connection to the real world at all.
All I'm saying is that, I find it challenging especially that I grew up in the city all my life, technology have played a huge part of my life. I was stuck there but glad it sunk in to my mind the real purpose why I came there and that is to sympathized for the loss of a loved one.
It wasn't really what I expected it to be. I experience life in the province but not the same as this one. Went to different provinces because of leisure not because I will be attending a ceremony, a wake and a burial. This one's different, a sad story somehow I will never forget.
Met Tatay way back 2-3 years ago. Haven't got the chance to talk to him personally. Just a few hi and hello's and exchanging of smiles. But seeing their families cry and feeling the pain that they are feeling, I can't help but cry too because I know how it feels losing a loved one. That's when I realized, life is valuable, that life is too short. GOD loves him so much that GOD doesn't want him to suffer much. I pray for his soul and I know that he is with the good LORD. May he rest in peace and be with GOD. This serve as a wake up call for us to make the most of your time by spending it with the ones you love. Spend it with your family, cherish every moment while they are still alive because we never know what will happen next. We can never tell and only GOD knows.
Death is inevitable and we can't do anything about it but be glad that somehow those who died will forever rest in peace and be with the Father. And while we are still alive, we have to make every second count, every moment valued because in one snap, anything can happen to us or to our family. And the only thing we can do is just to pray.
So I pray for Tatay Carling's soul and I just want you to know that we all love you. Thank you for everything... I know you are a good guy and you will forever be missed.
RIP Tatay Carling
First and last picture with Lucas
Blowing his last birthday cake
with the grandchildren
His last birthday cake
We'll someday see you in heaven..
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