Lately I lost my appetite in blogging. I realized I lost the essence of what truly is to blog and that all I ever wanted was to compete with other bloggers and I somehow forgot the real reason why I started this blog in the first place. Apart from my hectic schedule with work, I went to Samar to extend my deepest condolences to my partner's family. Stayed there for a week with poor network coverage, no TV and no internet connection. All I ever did was look after my baby, eat, stroll in the beach and sleep. I then realized that technology have made a big impact in the society today. Based on my experience, without technology, everything is so dull and boring and I feel uneducated, illiterate. I don't mean it in a negative way but these are based on my own opinion. Of course books are always there to save you from boredom. But I then realized how hard it is for me growing up in a city and all of sudden live in a province with no connection to the real world at all.
All I'm saying is that, I find it challenging especially that I grew up in the city all my life, technology have played a huge part of my life. I was stuck there but glad it sunk in to my mind the real purpose why I came there and that is to sympathized for the loss of a loved one.
It wasn't really what I expected it to be. I experience life in the province but not the same as this one. Went to different provinces because of leisure not because I will be attending a ceremony, a wake and a burial. This one's different, a sad story somehow I will never forget.
Met Tatay way back 2-3 years ago. Haven't got the chance to talk to him personally. Just a few hi and hello's and exchanging of smiles. But seeing their families cry and feeling the pain that they are feeling, I can't help but cry too because I know how it feels losing a loved one. That's when I realized, life is valuable, that life is too short. GOD loves him so much that GOD doesn't want him to suffer much. I pray for his soul and I know that he is with the good LORD. May he rest in peace and be with GOD. This serve as a wake up call for us to make the most of your time by spending it with the ones you love. Spend it with your family, cherish every moment while they are still alive because we never know what will happen next. We can never tell and only GOD knows.
Death is inevitable and we can't do anything about it but be glad that somehow those who died will forever rest in peace and be with the Father. And while we are still alive, we have to make every second count, every moment valued because in one snap, anything can happen to us or to our family. And the only thing we can do is just to pray.
So I pray for Tatay Carling's soul and I just want you to know that we all love you. Thank you for everything... I know you are a good guy and you will forever be missed.
RIP Tatay Carling
First and last picture with Lucas
Blowing his last birthday cake
with the grandchildren
His last birthday cake
We'll someday see you in heaven..