Honestly, I am still healing as of this moment. I admit, the pain is excruciating. There are times that for no reason at all, I felt like crying and suddenly, without me knowing, tears are already welling up my eyes and they're starting to fall, tears per tears. I won't give up without a fight but what if the person whom you're fighting for already gave you up that easily, that the person I'm holding on to has pushed me away. Will you still choose to stay or rather it's time for you to go away?
I gave up. I wanted to hold on to my relationship, trying to settle it, giving it another try but it's going to be useless. I love him so much that I have to set him free. I don't know how long will I feel this pain but I cling and hold on to GOD that I know someday, this pain will be gone. That I no longer have to suffer for I have sacrificed enough. I prayed and prayed and prayed every single day, I talked to GOD every single hour, every single minute, every moment that I have. As much as I don't want to think about it but I just can't help. Every memory, every moment, everything reminds me of him, of us especially that our love have been blessed with a little angel.
All I ever wanted is a complete family. Born and raised in a family oriented parents, I was taught that the great foundation is our family. And now, it hurts the most that my dream of having one has perished. Seeing my relationship torn apart has greatly affected me the most. I can pretend that I am okay, I can keep it all by myself, but at times, especially when I am alone, I can't help but cry, a lot. I have so much bitterness and hate in my heart and I want to clear it out once and for all.
Prayers. I badly needed GOD to help me go through with this pain that I am feeling. I needed your prayers for GOD to give me strength so that I could move on and let go with it. I could no longer take the pain.
So for the boyfriend-who-broke-my-heart and for the girl-that-you-chose-over-me, hope you both are happy. I hope our common friend, KARMA won't hurt you. And as for 2012, I'm looking forward to a better me, together with my little one, bright career, and a better future.
Time heals a broken heart. A scar in my heart taught me a great lesson in love. To let go and let GOD.
I welcome 2012 with a broken heart yet I'm hoping this year won't end still with a broken heart but with an open mind and a forgiving heart. I'll try to think positive thoughts and keep myself busy if possible. And to end this one, whatever tragic experiences that we are facing, someday, somehow, there will come a time that everything will be alright, in GOD's perfect time.
4 comments:
I'am so much feel for you. I was once felt that kind of feeling, it's devastating but in time will heal. You can find still happiness in God's perfect time...you take care and the little one.
hi sis! hope you're feeling better na.:) it might not be easy but time heals all wounds--corny pero true.:) And continue praying lang. God is forever there for you:)
Thanks @IheartPrettyThings.. I know it I'll be able to move on and learn to let go. It takes time though but like what you said, I'll find happiness in GOD's perfect time. =)
@Pax - Thanks Pax. =) I feel a lot better. Thanks for the concern. Thanks a lot! I will never stop praying. In GOD's perfect time, this too shall pass. =)
New Year's day of 2008, I found out my bf of 2 yrs was cheating on me. It was the worst feeling in the world, but keep in mind that everything happens for a reason :) See the silver lining in such problems. God is trying to tell you something so open your heart so it can be fully revealed to you ;) Maybe there's a better opportunity waiting for you or maybe he's trying to teach you something. It won't be easy, but it's going to be worth it in the end ;)Give it some time and continue praying. God won't you something you can't handle, remember that.
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