pissed off
I'm so pissed off. What the heck does he mean? Am I cheating? This is so stupid. I am so damn tired of being accused of something in which you haven't done before. Let's just put this way, he's throwing all the jokes at me 'coz the fact that he could have always blackmailed me. I am so damn tired!! And all that he could ever do is threat me. Like for example, my colleague was just telling me to go home, sleep early 'coz I still have to wake up early tomorrow, and before he left, he said to let my baby (a.k.a my bf) sleep early and that's what he said. But he was acting stupid! Acting as if I made a big mistake! Hey stupid the revenge you did is not a good joke! Do you think I was happy??? Yeah right!! The joke he threw at me was a great insult! HAPPY?? HUh! You stupid cat!!!! Get a life! I am so damn tired... :( can I just breathe?? T_T
ISsues over and over again..
He's mad at me. Yes, I knew it, I knew he was totally mad at me.
I'm over with my ex but he just can't seem to get it.
I had enough of it. Enough is enough. I'm so tired.
I'm tired of proving to someone that I had moved on but then, for them, it doesn't really count and still they can't get it. :(
I'm tired.. So tired... I wanted to run away...
I'm over with my ex but he just can't seem to get it.
I had enough of it. Enough is enough. I'm so tired.
I'm tired of proving to someone that I had moved on but then, for them, it doesn't really count and still they can't get it. :(
I'm tired.. So tired... I wanted to run away...
Training part II
I really had fun with the training. I learned a lot of things and gained a lot of friends. The people were very competitive and I find it a challenge because these are not just ordinary individuals, they are well trained and for some, they are fluent in English. On the other hand, I was able to gain more confidence in myself now and thank GOD for it. Ever since I submitted myself for this training, I was totally changed. And I've been praying for this many times. I pray that GOD will help me and provide knowledge and would guide me as I go through with this and indeed, he never proved me wrong. HE was with me all throughout the training.
I wasn't really expecting that much. All I ever wanted is to grow, gain more confidence in speaking and be able to achieve something in my life. And with the least expectations that I have, GOD is soooo good that HE made me exceptional. I was really flattered by the comments of my trainer, because of all the students that they had, he really commented on me that I was good and all. It was so flattering at the same time I make sure to remain humble as it is. Really, I feel pressured at the same time. I don't want them to expect anything from me, but now, I feel pressured by all their expectations, with the positive comments that they all have, I don't want them to expect that I am that good, almost perfect and all, I just want to remain simple and silent as it is.
I am pressured in the sense that tomorrow, I'll be having an interview with Ms. Melanie, their head supervisor or trainer or manager (I'm not really sure of her position) but anyways, I'll be having this interview with her, but honestly, I'm too nervous, they said that she is a perfectionist and a meticulous one. And I really have to make such preparations so that I will be able to pass to her standards. I am so nervous and I know that by tomorrow, I'll be running out of words to say or probably lose my control. I really don't know what will happen but I do hope and pray that somehow I hope it will be successful and okay. So help me GOD..
And LORD, I give back all the glory, honor, praises and thanks to YOU. You are the one worthy of the praises and the honor. I wouldn't be this successful if it wasn't for you. I wouldn't be able to gain more confidence if it wasn't for the confidence you have given to me, and with all the praises of the people, YOU are worthy of the praises and not me. 'coz if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be here, I wouldn't be this successful, so thank you LORD. Thank you for guiding me as I answer my interview questions, thank you for the confidence and the answers that you provided me, and lastly, thank you for the knowledge. I offer this success to you and the praises and thanks to you oh LORD. Thank you so much.. I love you with all of me! :) mwaaah!
I wasn't really expecting that much. All I ever wanted is to grow, gain more confidence in speaking and be able to achieve something in my life. And with the least expectations that I have, GOD is soooo good that HE made me exceptional. I was really flattered by the comments of my trainer, because of all the students that they had, he really commented on me that I was good and all. It was so flattering at the same time I make sure to remain humble as it is. Really, I feel pressured at the same time. I don't want them to expect anything from me, but now, I feel pressured by all their expectations, with the positive comments that they all have, I don't want them to expect that I am that good, almost perfect and all, I just want to remain simple and silent as it is.
I am pressured in the sense that tomorrow, I'll be having an interview with Ms. Melanie, their head supervisor or trainer or manager (I'm not really sure of her position) but anyways, I'll be having this interview with her, but honestly, I'm too nervous, they said that she is a perfectionist and a meticulous one. And I really have to make such preparations so that I will be able to pass to her standards. I am so nervous and I know that by tomorrow, I'll be running out of words to say or probably lose my control. I really don't know what will happen but I do hope and pray that somehow I hope it will be successful and okay. So help me GOD..
And LORD, I give back all the glory, honor, praises and thanks to YOU. You are the one worthy of the praises and the honor. I wouldn't be this successful if it wasn't for you. I wouldn't be able to gain more confidence if it wasn't for the confidence you have given to me, and with all the praises of the people, YOU are worthy of the praises and not me. 'coz if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be here, I wouldn't be this successful, so thank you LORD. Thank you for guiding me as I answer my interview questions, thank you for the confidence and the answers that you provided me, and lastly, thank you for the knowledge. I offer this success to you and the praises and thanks to you oh LORD. Thank you so much.. I love you with all of me! :) mwaaah!
Training
Yipeeeeeee... I'm quite excited and looking forward working in Manila. Thanks to P20 or People2Outsource, because of them, my ultimate dream of working in Manila won't just be a dream away. I mean, it's not really my dream, but for me, it's something new to me and at least, I could be independent and start living on my own this time. Though, I haven't really passed the tests or interviews, because I just had my first interview a while back and thank GOD I passed the initial interview and thank GOD there were no side comments about my speech, my thoughts and everything. I admit, for me, it was really a disaster, 'coz I jumble mumbled the words and I wasn't really answering his questions in a direct way, I lost my nerve and control and was completely way out of control, even the answers I wrote which I prepared ahead of time so that I will just be reading them, but during my interview, I just can't remember any of my answers, I just answered them to my very best and all but I really thank GOD I passed. There were no side comments, but then, as I assess for myself, I think I need to focus more in answering interview questions, 'coz honestly, the questions are totally nerve wrecking and mind twisting, so it needs a lot of practice and I'm the type of person that once I start to talk, I seem to lose control in everything, but really, looking on the bright side, what I love about myself is that I was able to gain more confidence in whatever I say, even though it sounded like not okay but it was really good and I'm so proud of myself. Weeeeeee... I'm also happy that mingming passed too! Hoping that we would be both hired for HTMT.. I'm really looking forward in working with HTMT. I mean, as I see, they are in top rank and considered as one of the most prestigious call centers in the Philippines and if given a chance to work there, I can really say, that wow, I am not just somebody, I am one of the best. And also looking forward in working with IBM, it's like IBM or HTMT or nothing. Hahahhahaha...
Help me O LORD GOD.. Just like what I told to my interviewer, "this is a once in a lifetime opportunity for me to actually work in Manila and be hired in one of the top most rank call centers nationwide. It's a great honor for me and I would totally treasure the days being spent in the company and expect me to return the favor and the gratitude in accepting me as one of your employees." but this is not the words I actually said, I seemed to forget the exact lines.. hehehehe
As for tomorrow, we need to practice more of our interview skills so that somehow, by the time our final interview will reach, at least we could be able to gain more confidence in speaking and we could actually say what we want to say and let the interviewer be impressed. Wish me luck for tomorrow's exam. I pray that I will pass the exam.
So, help me GOD. :)
Help me O LORD GOD.. Just like what I told to my interviewer, "this is a once in a lifetime opportunity for me to actually work in Manila and be hired in one of the top most rank call centers nationwide. It's a great honor for me and I would totally treasure the days being spent in the company and expect me to return the favor and the gratitude in accepting me as one of your employees." but this is not the words I actually said, I seemed to forget the exact lines.. hehehehe
As for tomorrow, we need to practice more of our interview skills so that somehow, by the time our final interview will reach, at least we could be able to gain more confidence in speaking and we could actually say what we want to say and let the interviewer be impressed. Wish me luck for tomorrow's exam. I pray that I will pass the exam.
So, help me GOD. :)
Wish me luck
It's kinda late at night and I'm still wide awake. I haven't eaten my dinner yet and I don't feel hungry either. I'm not on a diet nor trying to save up my money. I'm just not quite in the mood to eat. Oooops sorry.. Anyweiz, yesterday was tooootally a disappointing day for me and totally frustrating. Its totally depressing but trying to find ways to cope up with it. Today, it seems quite okay, but totally not okay, its never good to say okay 'coz its totally not okay. It's as much as I want to express my frustrations but then too shy to admit such, I'd rather keep it in private than publicized it. Anyways, they say, when one opportunity closes, another door opens. Yesterday one opportunity totally closed its doors but then, here's comes another big opportunity knocking. And I tell you, I'm not born to be a giver-uper! I fight and fight and fight, did I forgot to mention that I am an ultimate fighter? And now, with all the downfalls of yesterday, I am ready to stand up and move on.
By the way, tomorrow, I'll be having my interview from People2Outsource company and also from Northern Transcription. I have lots of appointment for tomorrow and hoping that I would be accepted by the job offer, but if not, still, it's not yet the end of the world. I know, that another door of opportunity will open in GOD's perfect time, besides, I am patiently waiting. (Smile) :)
So I guess, time to end up here. I still need to reprint my resume and my other credentials. Probably tomorrow, I'll also be submitting my resume and other credentials in hospitals too, so as to apply as a volunteer nurse. Just want to make use of my degree and my profession as well.
By the way, tomorrow, I'll be having my interview from People2Outsource company and also from Northern Transcription. I have lots of appointment for tomorrow and hoping that I would be accepted by the job offer, but if not, still, it's not yet the end of the world. I know, that another door of opportunity will open in GOD's perfect time, besides, I am patiently waiting. (Smile) :)
So I guess, time to end up here. I still need to reprint my resume and my other credentials. Probably tomorrow, I'll also be submitting my resume and other credentials in hospitals too, so as to apply as a volunteer nurse. Just want to make use of my degree and my profession as well.
Blogging
I've always thought that blogging is boring but then I find myself so into it. I mean, I had 2 blogs from the blogger site, 1 xanga, 1 myspace, 1 friendster and 1 multiply blog and each of the topic varies from one blog to the other, I even update myself now through twitter, though only 2 of my friends registered but then, as time goes by, never would I imagine, I now have 11 followers. Wow! I'm overwhelmed. Really, even if it's only 11 but still I never thought they would follow me, I'm not a public figure that someone would totally follow or be interested with, I'm just simple from the girl next door, shy and silent. Weeew... Quite flattering really. :)
Anyways, back into this blogging thing, I love to blog because I can always express what I truly feel, no pretentions, nothing to fear, and the fact that I remain anynymous. Way back when I was still in high school, I used to write and scribble down the events of my day and everything in my diary. Believe it or not, I have 6 diaries all in all. But eversince I involved myself in this blogging thing, my diaries remained 6 as it is. And what I truly love about blogging is that I can still keep my secrets, share my experiences, express my frustrations, wishes, dreams and ambitions without nothing to worry about because I can always keep my identity anonymous and it's really all up to me whether I'll reveal it or not, but for me, it doesn't really matter, because this seems to be my online diary, as to where I can pour out my emotions and be myself. But what inspires me most of the time, is having feedbacks and comments about my topic or my blog, may it be my blog design/layout up to the least details of the title of my blog, it feels like, one can relate with the experience/s that I've been going through and someone takes his/her time reading these personal blog of mine. Nothing interesting but glad they find it interesting. Having them around, is totally amazing. But I'm not blogging just to be praised, still, for me, this is who I am, my life and my own self, it's all up to them whether they'll accept me or not, I don't really care.
I've been talking a lot now and it's early in the morning and I'm still wide awake. But you know what? I still don't feel sleepy. I think my sleeping pattern is abnormal but the good thing here is that I still get a lot of sleep despite everything. Hahhaahah!
Even if blogging for others is boring but for me this is my life, my home and my comfort zone. Nothing to hide. Nothing to fear about. Just totally me. And I'm so0000 loving it!
Times up! Time for me to end this conversation with my own self. Time to hit the bed and rest.
PS: Call it Ms. COnfident but without hesitation, I nominated my self to Philippine Blog Awards. I'm not really expecting that much, but at least trying won't hurt a bit either. Besides, this is a free country and I do think I have the talent as well and the qualifications for such, so why not? It's an opportunity already knocking on my door and a blessing as well. Whether I will win or not but the thought that at least I tried! :) And nothing's really wrong with that (I suppose). C:
BUt if you have time, feel free to drop by and nominate my blog. I'm not forcing you to nominate me, it's really all up to you, this is a democratic country, you have your freedom. But if you feel like voting me, then vote for me! :) I'd be glad to! And thanks in advance everyone!!! May GOD BLESS you all!
Curious? Here's the url: http://www.philippineblogawards.com.ph/
Super duper thanks!!!!! Mwah! mwah! mwah! mwah!!!!!! Lotsa lovin!!!!
Boys over flowers
I wanted to share something to all of you yesterday, but due to some work I have to finish and I was quite busy that is why I wasn't able to blog. Yesterday, I uploaded some pics of last Saturday's event which was kuya Rany's belated birthday celebration and at the same time, trying to finish the errand my mom gave to me but still, despite the busy-ness, still I was able to upload all the pictures and was able to post new pics in my twitter too! C:
Anyways, yesterday, I felt lazy and quite not feeling well, so I decided to just stay at home. And since I slept late the other day, I slept early in the morning and woke up late in the afternoon and by the time I woke up yesterday, my sister arrived in the house quite late because she was tasked to deliver the orders and on her way home she passed by the street and saw a street vendor selling pictures of the casts of Boys over flowers, and since she knew I've been following the series and go crazy "kilig" over them, she bought me these wallet size pictures of them. I super love it and super thanks to my sister.
Anyways, yesterday, I felt lazy and quite not feeling well, so I decided to just stay at home. And since I slept late the other day, I slept early in the morning and woke up late in the afternoon and by the time I woke up yesterday, my sister arrived in the house quite late because she was tasked to deliver the orders and on her way home she passed by the street and saw a street vendor selling pictures of the casts of Boys over flowers, and since she knew I've been following the series and go crazy "kilig" over them, she bought me these wallet size pictures of them. I super love it and super thanks to my sister.
So much for all the talk and blah blah's, so here it is:
So that's it for now! Just droppin' by to share my thoughts and my pics as well. Hahahaha.. Till here guys!
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I'm in love again
One fine sunny day, while walking in the park, you accidentally bumped this guy. How would you feel? What would your reaction be? Hmmm.. I wonder what would be mine. Star struck? Or am I goin' to faint? I really don't know, but if ever that happens, it would then be the most unforgettable heaven experience I would totally feel. Haaaay... He's the kind of guy every girl dreams of. The ideal guy any girl would like to have. Not to mention, he's man enough physically and oh-so-dying-body.. Boy, you are one heck of a cutie I totally don't want to miss. Hahaha.. :P
Anyways, who doesn't even know this guy? Oh com'on! Girls, help me introduce him, let's just call him, Gu Jyun Pyo. hahaha.. I prefer to call him Gu Jun Pyo 'coz the fact that I started to love his character in the series, Boys Over Flowers. I love his personality and he really did made his character a lovable one. I fell in love with him not because of what he only looks like but of course, because of his character in the story that almost melted my heart. LOL.. :P
I wish he knew what I felt for him. Kidding! :))
I'm inlove again.... :) Sweet....
But anyweiz, he's really not the typical sweet type, but he's more on my ideal type of guy. The "suplado" type, hard-to-get type of guy outside but then oh-so-sweet inside. Haaaayyyyyyyy..... But my love for him is only up to that, I really don't know his real personality but I love him in his character only and of course, not to mention, the way he looks and presents himself. If given a chance to trade places with Geum Jan Di, why not? Hahahha... He's super sweet and man enough to handle a girl. But I don't love the whole package of his character, because there's this part of him that I totally hate, and that is his pride. But the part that I love the most and getting butterflies in my tummy is that everytime I see his efforts and everytime he swallows his pride, oh no, I call it my superman! Hhahahha.. He's my hero. I sooo love him. But anyways, I'm done watching this series already, I'm totally moved with his efforts for Jan Di. What a pair! And even if this series has already ended, still I just can't get over it. I want him more! hahaahha.. No wonder, Bianca GOnzalez likes him too! Who doesn't? :P
Anyways, for those who doesn't even know who this guy is, okay, I'll just reveal his real name here, his name is Lee Min Ho. Born June 22, 1987, we have the same age! That' is why I love him. hhahha.. Meant to be? Yeah right! I'm daydreaming again. :) Anyways, he's known for leading role as Gu Jun Pyo in the manga series Boys over Flowers. He's the F4 leader and Geum Jan Di's lover. Curious about him? Search the net, the world wide web has the widest information about this guy. I was able to grab some few info's about him. Sorry but I'm not really adie-hard fan of this guy. Oooopss.. sorry again.. :) Peace everyone!
So I guess, I have to end up till here! I still have to daydream about him! Hahahaha... At least in my dreams, I can imagine as if I am Jan Di. Oh, I'm so loving it. Mwah! mwah!!!!! byebye!!!
Anyways, for those who doesn't even know who this guy is, okay, I'll just reveal his real name here, his name is Lee Min Ho. Born June 22, 1987, we have the same age! That' is why I love him. hhahha.. Meant to be? Yeah right! I'm daydreaming again. :) Anyways, he's known for leading role as Gu Jun Pyo in the manga series Boys over Flowers. He's the F4 leader and Geum Jan Di's lover. Curious about him? Search the net, the world wide web has the widest information about this guy. I was able to grab some few info's about him. Sorry but I'm not really a
So I guess, I have to end up till here! I still have to daydream about him! Hahahaha... At least in my dreams, I can imagine as if I am Jan Di. Oh, I'm so loving it. Mwah! mwah!!!!! byebye!!!
Insomnia attack
Rise and shine everyone!!! Good morning!!!! My morning sounds so great, but the truth behind it is that, I haven't slept since last night. Now, I feel like I'm super high. Really, I'm not sleepy yet nor had the feeling that I wanted to sleep. I had a terrible insomnia. Grrrrrrrrr.... But the good thing here is that, there's nothing to worry about because I can sleep anytime I want, for the reason that I have all the time in the world (for now). No appointments, no errands, no date, and other stuff. So, I can sleep all day and wake up anytime I want. Yippeeeeee
But since I'm still wide awake, I'm done checking my mails, updated my online store, joined some forums, checked other sites, and a lot more. But you know what? With all the updates that I did, I totally had fun updating my twitter. Yep.. yep.. I'm starting to love twitter more than I could ever imagine. I never thought I could post pictures but glad I already did. weeeeee.. I'm so lovin' it... Thanks to maxene magalona, since I'm following her in twitter, she shared something and when I came to look at it, I was totally amaze, really, thanks to her, now I know that I can post and share pics in twitter too.. I love it!! For those who wants to follow me in twitter, feel free to follow, my username is itahl. Of course, you have to be a member first before you can follow me. Hihihihi...It's good to be part of twitter, it keeps you updated with your friends everynow and then.
Anyweiz, I had fun surfing the net even though I had insomnia attacks. Next plan? Hmmm.. Play guitar geek. I want to beat all my friends. Hahahaha... Totally a geek! Till here.. I still have to visit more interesting sites and play more exciting games until I have the urge to sleep already.. Love lots!!! mwah!! mwah!! mwah!!!
But since I'm still wide awake, I'm done checking my mails, updated my online store, joined some forums, checked other sites, and a lot more. But you know what? With all the updates that I did, I totally had fun updating my twitter. Yep.. yep.. I'm starting to love twitter more than I could ever imagine. I never thought I could post pictures but glad I already did. weeeeee.. I'm so lovin' it... Thanks to maxene magalona, since I'm following her in twitter, she shared something and when I came to look at it, I was totally amaze, really, thanks to her, now I know that I can post and share pics in twitter too.. I love it!! For those who wants to follow me in twitter, feel free to follow, my username is itahl. Of course, you have to be a member first before you can follow me. Hihihihi...It's good to be part of twitter, it keeps you updated with your friends everynow and then.
Anyweiz, I had fun surfing the net even though I had insomnia attacks. Next plan? Hmmm.. Play guitar geek. I want to beat all my friends. Hahahaha... Totally a geek! Till here.. I still have to visit more interesting sites and play more exciting games until I have the urge to sleep already.. Love lots!!! mwah!! mwah!! mwah!!!
Model in the making
Can you actually believe it? I totally made it! Y-E-S!!! Y-E-S!! I am on the cover of my favorite magazine, CANDY.. WOW!! I'm so loving it! Exciting isn't it? Oh yes.... I am tooootally overwhelmed.. Everything seems to be so perfect, the looks, the picture and even the layout, wow... simply just can't get enough, so what are you waiting for? Hurry, rush to your nearest magazine stalls and bookstores and buy your own copy 'coz this is only limited edition.... Oh my... Oh my... Amazing...
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but then again.. it's only an illusion, a day dream, a fantasy, and time for me to wake up! Wake up Krystal! Wake upppppp!!! Wake up into the world of reality!!!! Oh common....
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Eversince I was a kid, I always admire models on the print ads, billboards, magazines and tv, and I often wonder, how it feels like to be one. You know, the fame and all the perks and the life of a model. You see, seems like they're born to be perfect and everything: the looks, the body to die for, the height, and the skin and all you could ever picture out what a model looks like. But FYI everyone, they too have their own flaws, their own weaknesses, and they are not perfect, of course, nobody's perfect either.
But now, I'm still livin' in an illusion, in my dreams that I can become a model. BUt WAIT! Who says I'm not? Of course, I am a model. Not a ramp model or a print ad model, but a model to my younger generation. A model of good character and a positive attitude. Though I exist in my too extraordinary simple world, but for me, I am a model in my own world, in my heart and in my soul, I exist in the world of modeling of good character and a positive attitude. but hey, it doesn't necessarily need to be beautiful to become a model, what matter is that you have confidence in yourself and believe that you are beautiful and a personality that shines through and that would amaze the world; and as for me? I am proud and confident to say that I am beautiful inside and out.. With the positive outlook in life and confidence in oneself, that brings out the very best of a girl who looks at the world with a very big smile on her face and still looks forward to a brighter world! Am I right?
Oooopppps.. Till here.. I know, this is not a dream, 'coz I'm still wide awake.. Anyways, time to go now.. Clock's ticking.. I have pictorials and appointments to attend to, (here I am again..) hahaha
Byebye everyone... :) Au revoir!!!!!!!!!! Lotsa lovin!!!!
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but then again.. it's only an illusion, a day dream, a fantasy, and time for me to wake up! Wake up Krystal! Wake upppppp!!! Wake up into the world of reality!!!! Oh common....
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Eversince I was a kid, I always admire models on the print ads, billboards, magazines and tv, and I often wonder, how it feels like to be one. You know, the fame and all the perks and the life of a model. You see, seems like they're born to be perfect and everything: the looks, the body to die for, the height, and the skin and all you could ever picture out what a model looks like. But FYI everyone, they too have their own flaws, their own weaknesses, and they are not perfect, of course, nobody's perfect either.
But now, I'm still livin' in an illusion, in my dreams that I can become a model. BUt WAIT! Who says I'm not? Of course, I am a model. Not a ramp model or a print ad model, but a model to my younger generation. A model of good character and a positive attitude. Though I exist in my too extraordinary simple world, but for me, I am a model in my own world, in my heart and in my soul, I exist in the world of modeling of good character and a positive attitude. but hey, it doesn't necessarily need to be beautiful to become a model, what matter is that you have confidence in yourself and believe that you are beautiful and a personality that shines through and that would amaze the world; and as for me? I am proud and confident to say that I am beautiful inside and out.. With the positive outlook in life and confidence in oneself, that brings out the very best of a girl who looks at the world with a very big smile on her face and still looks forward to a brighter world! Am I right?
Oooopppps.. Till here.. I know, this is not a dream, 'coz I'm still wide awake.. Anyways, time to go now.. Clock's ticking.. I have pictorials and appointments to attend to, (here I am again..) hahaha
Byebye everyone... :) Au revoir!!!!!!!!!! Lotsa lovin!!!!
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY PAPA!!!
I wonder how my life would be without my dad? Hmmm... Of course, I wouldn't be so lucky without him. My dad, whom was the bread winner of our family, with the responsibility that was passed on to him, he took the responsibility and took care of everything. Not to mention, the status that we have right now, we wouldn't be able to reach this far if it wasn't for his effort. And thanks to his genes, I was beautifully made and to my mom's genes too! And also, if it wasn't for my parents, I wouldn't exist here on earth. There would be no Krystal Pearl that would exists. And I wouldn't be this unique if it wasn't for my parent's efforts and their genes! khkhkkh...
Eversince I was born into this world, I grew up with the fact that my dad has always been our provider and indeed he never proved me wrong because he provided us with everything. He's not selfish, he takes good care of us and makes sure that all our needs have been met, and he surprises us once in a while too. What I love about my dad is that, he's a carefree person, he is kind hearted and a good father to us. He seldom gets mad, and he seldom argues with us. And also he's funny and cool to be with too. He disciplined us that is why we are raised as well mannered children. Well, I wouldn't be a professional nurse without my dad's financial support. Thanks to his stable job, me and my sister were able to finish college. I owe my success to my dad who supported me with my financial needs even before as I was still a student. Even though at times, when money is hard to find, he will still finds a way to provide me with all my needs in school, may it be tuition, other expense and even allowance. See? That is why I am super duper proud of my dad, who molded us and trained us into a great and professional human beings.
So here's a letter to my super duper cool dad:
Papa dear, thank you for everything. And I'm really sorry I wasn't able to greet you on your day. My sincerest apology, but anyway, I guess its not yet that late for me to greet you a HAPPY FATHER'S DAY PAPA DEAR!! I know life has been tough with our family, with all the mistakes you have done in the past, we forgive you. And with all the trials and challenges that our family have face, by GOD's will, we will be able to surpass all these trials in life, we'll just hold on to each other as a family and we will hold on tight to GOD and pray on our bended knees for GOD's help. I know HE will take good care of us and that HE is in control. Thank you for everything papa. Thank you for the love and support you have given to me. I wouldn't be this successful if it wasn't for you papa. Thank you so much for everything. Words are not enough for me to thank you. I am sooooo lucky to have a father like you. And I thank the LORD GOD above, for giving me a dear father like you. You are one of the greatest gifts GOD has given to me. Thank you LORD.. I love you papa... we are so proud of you!! You totally rock!!!
And LORD GOD, you are our heavenly father. You are the father of all.. This occassion is not just for our human dads, but YOU are also one of the everyday reasons why we celebrate FATHER'S DAY! Because you are our Abba Father! HAPPY FATHER'S DAY LORD GOD!! We your children are very much thankful for the life you have endowed to us! Thank you for dying on the cross for us. Thank you once again for the life you have given to us, thank you for the success you have given to me, the never ending support to our family and the unconditional love you have given to us. Thank you.. thank you. super thank you.. We love you LORD!!! Thank you so much..
And before I end this up, allow me to greet all the FATHER'S out there! And all the soon to be father's too!! May GOD BLESS YOU and your families as well!!! Lovelots to all the father's!!!!
Under Construction
It's been quite a while since I last posted a blog here. And to matter everything, I posted this signage that says under construction. Because the fact that I soooo wanted to update my blog every now and then but then again, I'm just too preoccupied to do such.. And I'm still thinking on what designs or new styles to add to my blog in order for it to be more attractive to look at.. But since I haven't thought of anything yet, for now, I'll just leave it as it is since I still have other important things to attend to.. But maybe soon, I will keep in touch with my blog more often. Keep update still!!! Love lots!!
Change
Everyday, I find myself so stupid and dumb. I make stupid decisions, faults and other matters, frustrating as it is but I admit, every night before I go to sleep, I always think about how I spent my day, and I find it so pathetic for my self and frustrating too because I wasted lots of opportunities, wasted too much time for nothing and the fact that I'm getting older but still I had less achievements. Yeah right, I'm not born with a silverspoon in my mouth, my freedom was taken away from me, I have to watch my moves every now and then because my family always look at me negatively. Yes, I'm not perfect, I am wild, I am rebellious, I am stupid and dumb and lazy and all, but behind those adjectives that people described me, behind it are the deepest hurts, frustrations, depressions, negativism of my mind, negative outlook in life and tears that I hid behind their backs; my bed, my pillows, my room and GOD are the only witness of my frustrations, confessions of my sins and all the crazy stuff that I've been doing. My parents think of me like I think of myself as perfect, they thought I don't listen to their advices and they look at me like I am always a rebellious child, but then they just don't realize, my heart is pure to help them in everything, I listen to their advices but I do absorb them discreetly, I am not rebellious, I just wanted to experience life at its fullest, I know what I'm doing, I am capable of my actions, of my sins and all the errors that I have been doing. I know... I know... 'Coz I am always being reminded by them everynight, before I go to sleep, they even haunt me in my dreams, even in the busy day of my life, I am reminded by it. GOD knows that I am totally a sinner, I am not perfect and I kept on committing the same mistakes over and over again, but I do confess my sins before GOD, I acknowledge my sins before HIM and asks forgiveness from HIM. But one thing they don't know, I listen to them, and that my heart is pure and true and sincere.
How can they see the change in me when they look at me negatively? How can I prove to them that I really changeD? Sometimes, I chose to be silent rather than talk, but lately, I chose to talk rather than to be silent because with all the hurts and pain that I have within me, I am already bombarded with it, my heart is too heavy and sometimes talking back finds relief, 'coz even if they don't listen to me and the words that I am saying to them, but at least I was able to express how I feel towards them and defending my self, is somehow the only way for me to regain strength after everything.
I am sorry for my dear parents and my siblings whom I have caused pain. I admit I made a lot of mistakes to you guys but then, if you guys only knew, I've been regretting all those, I listen to your advices, but in return, just please take time to listen to me. Just listen, I won't beg you to trust me, take good care of me, understand me, but just listen., only listen. I'm fine with it. I am sorry, I am not perfect, I am rebellious and I want my freedom. That's all..
How can they see the change in me when they look at me negatively? How can I prove to them that I really changeD? Sometimes, I chose to be silent rather than talk, but lately, I chose to talk rather than to be silent because with all the hurts and pain that I have within me, I am already bombarded with it, my heart is too heavy and sometimes talking back finds relief, 'coz even if they don't listen to me and the words that I am saying to them, but at least I was able to express how I feel towards them and defending my self, is somehow the only way for me to regain strength after everything.
I am sorry for my dear parents and my siblings whom I have caused pain. I admit I made a lot of mistakes to you guys but then, if you guys only knew, I've been regretting all those, I listen to your advices, but in return, just please take time to listen to me. Just listen, I won't beg you to trust me, take good care of me, understand me, but just listen., only listen. I'm fine with it. I am sorry, I am not perfect, I am rebellious and I want my freedom. That's all..
Job interview (part time)
OMG! Honestly, I thought my night would be a disaster. But then, thank GOD, they gave me a chance. I mean, this job really matters to me. This is already a big opportunity and I don't think I will let this slip away. Out of millions and billions of people who were unemployed, and here I am, the opportunity is knocking on my big door, and letting it slip away is totally a waste. You see, 120 per hour is huge enough already. Enough for me to be able to pursue my plans for that money and for some reasons, because I am supporting myself all alone. I have lots of plans for that money, if by GOD'S will be given a chance to be accepted, first things first, I will get mingming's motorcycle so that commuting will no longer be a hassle for the both of us and also, so that we can now start saving at least a little bit. And next on the line, my wants and his wants. Not to mention I still have to buy him a new slippers because his slippers is already damage as he calls it. And of course, my wants like buying a new pair of jeans, shirts, tops, sandals and of course bag, and also a new wallet. I wanted to save my extra money in the future so that by the time I need a little extra, at least there's something to pull out in my pocket. And so, even if its that tiring, having a part time job is totally compensating. You get to use your extra time for an extra money. See? That's the advantage of having a part time job at the comfort of your own home. That is why, I am totally praying that by GOD'S will, I will be accepted by this offer and hopefully, I would be able to finance my needs and at the same time wants. :)
Wish me good luck for my final interview. And may GOD BLESS ME... :) Love lots!! XOXO
Wish me good luck for my final interview. And may GOD BLESS ME... :) Love lots!! XOXO
Congratz zal!!!
Finally! Another superfriend of ours graduated from college!! Woooohoooo!!! I would just like to congratulate one of my best bud, Ms. Rizalyn Solamo for graduating the course of Bachelor of Science in Nursing! We are so proud of you zal.. It's the start of your career already.. The responsibility is passed on to you.. And your next step? Review, take and PASS the Board Exam! You can do it zal! You and cy2x can make it! We'll pray for you.. Just hold on tight, trust in HIM and lay all your worries to the LORD for HE will take care of you.. :)
Anyways, just remember my dear best bud, that we are here, we will support you and we'll be praying for you! A superfriend is only one take in the Board Exam! You can do it! Just don't mind the other people.. :) S
tay positive! LOve yah!! Thanks for the party!!
And here are some of the pics during her graduation party @ her crib!
Jobless career...
Ok... Summer.. summer. summer.. paved its way.. And of course, this means, hitting off the beach, cozy cold drinks, having a tan, sunblock, shades and of course, vacation! What a great summer if we can go somewhere only to relax and have fun! Would that be great? And yeah of course, with nothing to worry about, no hassles and stress to spoil the entire summer.
But then, speaking of summer, a month already came, its April already but still no job?! OMG.. ! You see, I'm totally impatient of not having a job! I feel useless by all means. My cousin who promised me this job is still left deadly hanging. No news or whatsoever! I feel so impatient because I don't want to be forever stuck in our house with nothing to do but watch our store?? heller, I should be working already but still I feel that am useless, doing the same old routine and nothing new! dUH! Sorry but I am so tired of waiting. Why can't they tell straight to my face that they don't want me in, rather than leave me hanging in the air, letting me expect this job but then its deadly nothing. Sorry for being mean but then how can I move on with my life if I kept on waiting for nothing? I should have moved on with my plans already but still nothing happens.
April just started, hoping somehow, I can move on with a new career and new hopes, not being stuck here for nothing. I feel useless and a burden.
Sorry.. Sorry.. Sorry.. I am just expressing what I feel.. Phew.. Till here... Gud nyt!!!
But then, speaking of summer, a month already came, its April already but still no job?! OMG.. ! You see, I'm totally impatient of not having a job! I feel useless by all means. My cousin who promised me this job is still left deadly hanging. No news or whatsoever! I feel so impatient because I don't want to be forever stuck in our house with nothing to do but watch our store?? heller, I should be working already but still I feel that am useless, doing the same old routine and nothing new! dUH! Sorry but I am so tired of waiting. Why can't they tell straight to my face that they don't want me in, rather than leave me hanging in the air, letting me expect this job but then its deadly nothing. Sorry for being mean but then how can I move on with my life if I kept on waiting for nothing? I should have moved on with my plans already but still nothing happens.
April just started, hoping somehow, I can move on with a new career and new hopes, not being stuck here for nothing. I feel useless and a burden.
Sorry.. Sorry.. Sorry.. I am just expressing what I feel.. Phew.. Till here... Gud nyt!!!
Happy hippie 16th monthsary
It's our birthday! Yep.. It's our 16th month of togetherness.. Can you imagine? I mean, we had undergone lots of obstacles and tests in our relationship but still here we are, we just celebrated our 16th monthsary. Oh common, if you only knew what we've been through, you can actually say that we won't go this far, but then, really, 1 year and 4 months? Well, I'm happy that we somehow passed the tests of our relationship, we hold tight to each other's promise of not to let go and no matter how many fights we have had, still we're holdin' on. And no matter how fed up I am with his attitude, still I'm holdin' on.. Obviously, yep, we're both holdin' on. :) and that's the promise that we kept no matter what.
Gifts are no longer a big issue for us, I mean, material things are just plainly material. What matters to us is the time being spent together and the bond we had as a couple. Slowly but surely, we knew each other's strength and weaknesses, and the good thing is that, we accept each other's weaknesses. :) So, since I wasn't able to give him a gift during valentines, I decided to give him a ring (which is actually one of the items that we were selling in our store) and a simple letter. It doesn't really cost that much but what matters is that the thought that really counts. :) Anyways, hope he likes it. :) Till here! Just want to update my blog for the status of my lovelife. :)
Till here! Au revoir! Lotsa lovin!!! mwah! mwah!!!! much love!!!
Gifts are no longer a big issue for us, I mean, material things are just plainly material. What matters to us is the time being spent together and the bond we had as a couple. Slowly but surely, we knew each other's strength and weaknesses, and the good thing is that, we accept each other's weaknesses. :) So, since I wasn't able to give him a gift during valentines, I decided to give him a ring (which is actually one of the items that we were selling in our store) and a simple letter. It doesn't really cost that much but what matters is that the thought that really counts. :) Anyways, hope he likes it. :) Till here! Just want to update my blog for the status of my lovelife. :)
Till here! Au revoir! Lotsa lovin!!! mwah! mwah!!!! much love!!!
New band, new pick
Get your ipod's and mp4's because a new band is starting to paved its way to stardom. Their songs is a mixed of rock/powerpop. For those who are fanatic of Avril Lavigne, Flyleaf and Paramore, for sure, here's a new pick for you to get tuned in, the new Floridian band "Hey Monday" with their new hit single "Homecoming", "Candles", and "Obvious". You'll totally love this band because the band itself is so special, the vocalist has a phenomenal voice and her vocal tone is near on perfect and every note she hits strongly with great passion in her heart. To introduce you with the band members;
- Cassadee Pope - Vocals
- Mike Gentile - Lead Guitar
- Alex Lipshaw - Rhythm Guitar
- Jersey Moriarty - Bass
- Elliot James - Drums
ain;t it cool to listen to another new taste of songs in your ipod? Honestly, I've been playing them over and over again in my laptop. Can't get enough of them.
Officially: proud tobe a registered nurse!!! :)
I was supposed to be in the speechless mode. I just don't know what to say. Mixed emotions. I've always thought that this would be just a super ordinary day, until.... tedeng.... the result has been released already. I was sooooooo nervous that I didn't know what to react and how to react. I kept thinking about the what if's.. Paranoid as I am, since last night, I kept on thinking about the result. Yesterday, my classmates texted me that it will be released by midnight, I waited but still no result came, then it was moved to 2 am, still I patiently waited and still, frustrated, no result were released. So I slept. Then today, I woke up, feeling my day would be just an extraordinary day as it is, I woke up late (as usual), I ate then I was supposed to leave the house early because I have to pay the water bill but then due to some misunderstanding between me and mingming earlier which eventually led into a fight, instead of leaving the house early, I went back upstairs, and slept. My phone kept on ringing, a message from a classmate of mine asking if the result was released already, since I was frustrated waiting last night, so I hurriedly replied (eyes closed) "not yet". And then, minutes after, another message came, it was from my closest bud, 2yang. She texted me in an excited manner that the result has been released already, to my surprised, I immediately got up from my bed, hurriedly ran down and turned the computer on as fast as I could. Then I typed the site as to where the result can possibly be found, and there it is, right in front of our pc, widescreen, the result were there, right before my weary eyes. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.... This is it (I told myself), the moment of truth, my judgment day of my career.. and then, I opened it. The letter B were divided into 3; B1, B2, B3.. oooppss... then I knew Br is in b3.. So without hesitations I clicked B3. The line up was from Bi down to the last. I first looked at my roomate's surname, and luckily I found her name. ------ Then there was silence in me, I stared the pc for a couple of seconds and then I closed my eyes and went near to my letter Br.. Funny as it is, there are a lot of Braga who took the board exam and to my surprise, call it miracle, praise GOD, I found my name there; "6480 BRAGA, KRYSTAL PEARL HIBAYA" waaaaaaaaaaaaa.... Due to overexcitement and extreme happiness, I cried. I was very happy seeing my name there. I just don't know what to react, I then searched the names of my other groupmates or close friends and classmates, but too bad, some of them were not able to make it. It was bitter sweet. I did passed but some of my closest friends were not there. I felt pity for them, we had the same experiences, we've been together through thick and thin and during the inhouse, they were that studious compared to me, but then, I just couldn't see their names there. T_T
14 of them were not able to make it. It was so sad.. T_T. I cried because I felt pity. I so wanted to comfort them but I just don't know how.. I don't want them to feel that I passed and they did not. I so wanted to hug them for real without uttering a word, but then I decided not for now, I would give them time, time to think about it, and cry.. I know its really frustrating, hurting and disappointing but then, everything happens for a reason. Maybe its not yet their time to pass, or not for now.. Good or bad, only GOD knows.. They just have to continue praying and move on. I know its onerous but it takes time. Take a second chance.. I'm so sad... T_T
Well, on the other hand, my parents were never really that excited or extremely happy when they heard the result. I mean maybe my dad was so proud, but I don't think my mom was. I mean of course she was happy and proud too but something lacks. I never felt nor seen the enjoyment in their faces. Just a simple congratulations and even their facial expressions tells me that they were just happy, plain and simple. I don't know as to their side but that's what I felt, that's my own point of view. My dad, I can tell that he is proud and happy too because he even treat his co-workers and bought pizza for them and in here too. But then when I got home, still all my mother could ever think of are household chores, "Krystal do these, do that" and blah blah.. I don't know but her facial expression is so deadly plain, not even a smile or a glimpse. I don't know, but I never mind them. What matters now, is that I passed. Take one baby!! heheheh..
Anyweiz, looking forward to the start of my career. As for me, I am so thankful to GOD that I passed the Board Exam! Thanks be to GOD! I give back all the glory, honour and praises to you oh LORD!! You are omnipotent GOD! Marvelous! Apart from me I am nothing without HIM who gives me the strength, courage, hope, love, guidance, knowledge and wisdom. Lord, super duper thank YOU!!!!! I LOVE YOU LORD GOD!!! wooooohoooooo!!!
So, till here! R.N Itahl officially now signing off!! Thank YOU LORD!!! thank you friends for all the prayers!!! :) Love you guys!! LOVE YOU LORD!!!
PS: I will totally mark this day, one of my most unforgettable day ever in my entire life!! :)
December 20, 2009 - Friday <----- the day I became a registered nurse!!! :)
14 of them were not able to make it. It was so sad.. T_T. I cried because I felt pity. I so wanted to comfort them but I just don't know how.. I don't want them to feel that I passed and they did not. I so wanted to hug them for real without uttering a word, but then I decided not for now, I would give them time, time to think about it, and cry.. I know its really frustrating, hurting and disappointing but then, everything happens for a reason. Maybe its not yet their time to pass, or not for now.. Good or bad, only GOD knows.. They just have to continue praying and move on. I know its onerous but it takes time. Take a second chance.. I'm so sad... T_T
Well, on the other hand, my parents were never really that excited or extremely happy when they heard the result. I mean maybe my dad was so proud, but I don't think my mom was. I mean of course she was happy and proud too but something lacks. I never felt nor seen the enjoyment in their faces. Just a simple congratulations and even their facial expressions tells me that they were just happy, plain and simple. I don't know as to their side but that's what I felt, that's my own point of view. My dad, I can tell that he is proud and happy too because he even treat his co-workers and bought pizza for them and in here too. But then when I got home, still all my mother could ever think of are household chores, "Krystal do these, do that" and blah blah.. I don't know but her facial expression is so deadly plain, not even a smile or a glimpse. I don't know, but I never mind them. What matters now, is that I passed. Take one baby!! heheheh..
Anyweiz, looking forward to the start of my career. As for me, I am so thankful to GOD that I passed the Board Exam! Thanks be to GOD! I give back all the glory, honour and praises to you oh LORD!! You are omnipotent GOD! Marvelous! Apart from me I am nothing without HIM who gives me the strength, courage, hope, love, guidance, knowledge and wisdom. Lord, super duper thank YOU!!!!! I LOVE YOU LORD GOD!!! wooooohoooooo!!!
So, till here! R.N Itahl officially now signing off!! Thank YOU LORD!!! thank you friends for all the prayers!!! :) Love you guys!! LOVE YOU LORD!!!
PS: I will totally mark this day, one of my most unforgettable day ever in my entire life!! :)
December 20, 2009 - Friday <----- the day I became a registered nurse!!! :)
Sinulog
When January is about to come, of course Sinulog plans will surely be the talk of the town. Fully booked hotels and pension houses, increase price rates of beers and liquors, Henna tattoes, and of course I simply call it "Crowded Cebu". Well, the fact that visitors comin' from different places would rush to Cebu just to celebrate Sinulog with the Cebuanos. It's been a tradition for them to celebrate it every 2nd week or 3rd week of January. We are not an exception to it, not that I believe their Sr. Sto Niño, but everybody pays respect to that "sacred idol". I did not went to party just to celebrate its feast but because I enjoy the bonding moments with my cherished friends. It's been our tradition to bond every Sinulog and this year was a blast and loaded with FUN! whoa!!! You see, for the first time, we had a semi-reunion with my highschool friends and indeed we were all half complete. Ayt? And we had fun till morning, drinking sprees, never ending talk, pictures every now and then, and of course karaoke nights. Wohooo!! Well, one things for sure, we really had fun though! Hope it will still happen again. Hoping for another adventures partaaaay! I believe this is not yet the end of all our friendship but the beginning.. Well, as for the proof of evidence, here it is::: 
more pics comin' up... :) keep yourself updated.... weeeeeeeee
(L-R) Kano, 2yang, Zalyn, Viel, Me, Panyang and Francis
more pics comin' up... :) keep yourself updated.... weeeeeeeeeuncertain
Everyday, we can never be too sure of what life is ahead of us. What happens now may never be the same of what will happen tomorrow. It is so uncertain. Life is full of ups and downs. Change is constant and that's for sure. I may be in a good mood tomorrow and the next thing would totally be a disaster. Worst comes to worst and everything happens for a reason. Life itself is unpredictable. In a matter of seconds, in a blink of an eye, a lot of things happened already. We just cannot tell what will happen to us in the future, but we can always decide what we wanted to be in the future. Life is a matter of a rollercoaster ride, mixed emotions and all, but ei, no matter how crazy life is, enjoy every ride! Live as if everyday is the last. Savor the moments while you are still alive. Live life without regrets and enjoy!! have fun!!! as for me, I'm having fun with my life too (no matter how rocky it was)! Wink... wink.. to all of you..
XOXO... HUGS AND kisses!!!
XOXO... HUGS AND kisses!!!
little girl
And this girl is --ME--sad to say, my dreams were all vanished, I so believed in negativity where possibility is of less chance, I turned out to be the pessimistic person, and my heart was heavy and broken.. Could no longer bear the pain but still I'm fighting.. Everything is not normal already, I felt dead inside, living outside. (sigh) That smile of that little girl is no longer the smile of the girl I knew now.
T_T
Back to normal way of life
I thought my first week would totally be a disaster but then I'm wrong. Well, we were able to settle our little argument, patch things up and now, everything's back to normal. We date, hang out in their house, spend time with each other, exchanging of sweet-nothings and a lot of things a couple usually do, (not to forget hugs and kisses). :) Anyways, so much for all the love issue, were able to get over it.
Well, 2009 still unemployed status. You see, it's not because I was not accepted by a job offer, well, not to boast but there were numerous offers but I accidentally turned them all down. Usually I applied as an ESL Teacher due to my previous experience and somehow its my edge upon applying, and luckily I was being scheduled for an exam and interview, and sad to say, lazy as I was in 2008, I all turned them down. Unprofessional as I was, I wasn't able to show up during my scheduled exam and interview. But I did inform them the lame excuses that I made just to find a way out. So sorry.. And so, here I am stuck in front of the computer, doing nothing but checking mails and improving more of my blogs and other sites. Well, its consuming more of my time. Such a waste of time, isn't it? Yeah right, such a dork!
So much for all the blah blah talk.. Well, wish me luck for tomorrow. Hopefully I would be accepted in the part time ESL online teacher that I applied. Dunno what to do.. :) Heheheh... Hope I made an impressive mark to them.. :)
So, I guess, till here.. Just updating more of my adventurous and cozy life! LOLZ!!! :))
Lovelots.. XOXO...
Well, 2009 still unemployed status. You see, it's not because I was not accepted by a job offer, well, not to boast but there were numerous offers but I accidentally turned them all down. Usually I applied as an ESL Teacher due to my previous experience and somehow its my edge upon applying, and luckily I was being scheduled for an exam and interview, and sad to say, lazy as I was in 2008, I all turned them down. Unprofessional as I was, I wasn't able to show up during my scheduled exam and interview. But I did inform them the lame excuses that I made just to find a way out. So sorry.. And so, here I am stuck in front of the computer, doing nothing but checking mails and improving more of my blogs and other sites. Well, its consuming more of my time. Such a waste of time, isn't it? Yeah right, such a dork!
So much for all the blah blah talk.. Well, wish me luck for tomorrow. Hopefully I would be accepted in the part time ESL online teacher that I applied. Dunno what to do.. :) Heheheh... Hope I made an impressive mark to them.. :)
So, I guess, till here.. Just updating more of my adventurous and cozy life! LOLZ!!! :))
Lovelots.. XOXO...
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